[NC-17] BREATHE INTO ME (5/??)

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[NC-17] BREATHE INTO ME (6/??)

Sexto Tumba:
Hyukkie


DONGHAE’S POV

Eunhyuk keep on speeding up. No one dared to speak between us. Only the screeching of the wheels and the sound of zooming of the car filled our ears. Before my eyes, we are already at the parking lot near my pad.

“Let’s go...” He managed to say. Scared of garnering attention, I manage to get my jacket and put it on in him. Silence took our time as we got to my apartment.

This isn’t Uyu...

This isn’t Hyukkie that I know. When he knows I’m coming home, he would come down here in the first floor just to welcome me. We’ll ride the elevator together to go back to my apartment as he will babble all things that had happen to him when I wasn’t around. He’ll tell me everything. He would manage to make me smile and let me forget all my problems at work as he would cling to my hand. I know we would catch so much attention but none of that matter for we love each other and that’s what matters most. Silence never took our time together, until only now.

Now, even he is close, just beside me, he seems so far. I couldn’t help but to wish this is just a dream, a bad dream. And when I woke up, he’ll welcome me with a beautiful smile.

He can’t be Hyukkie now? Hyukkie is warm and bright... he’s pure but now as I see him, he’s dark and cold... stained... stained with blood.

We arrived at the floor where my pad lies. I opened the door for him and let him in first. I took a deep breath before I follow him inside. I close the door and look up to see him just standing there, his back was facing me.

Slowly, I took my steps and approach him but I couldn’t dare to touch him. I’m afraid... afraid when he turns around, I’ll see him differently. I’m afraid of Uyu at a state like this. Should I even call him Uyu or Eunhyuk at all?

“Hyuk...kie?” I manage to choke out. He looks at me back and I saw his eyes were pooled with tears.

“Hae....” He burst to me in tears, hugging me so tight and not wanting me to let go. I felt my shirt getting drenched, maybe with his tears but I don’t mind. All I could think of is to secure him in my arms and try to coax him.

“Hae... what’s happening... I’m afraid...” he said between his sobs.

“I don’t know Hyukkie... I don’t know...” I answered truthfully. I’m confused... in everything... especially about Uyu. Just awhile ago, he was so tough and strong but now he is so fragile yet precious. He showed his pureness and innocence once again. Does he have a double personality or something?

Who are those guys anyways? Are they after Uyu? Are they the one who dump him in the dump site? Uyu doesn’t deserve that cruelty and neither what had just happened.

I let go of him and tried myself to be freed from his wrapped arms. I have to go the kitchen and get him some water or even strawberry milk we have left. Maybe it will help him to calm down.

“Please, don’t leave...” He muttered. Slowly, we fall in our knees still our bodies were wrapped with each other. I can’t leave him when he asked it and at this condition. I can’t. I just stayed there and hugged him tighter. As my hand touch his arm, I felt something sticky. Damn! I forgot Hyukkie was shot.

“Hyukkie, are you okay? You’re wounded?” I manage to say calmly even it frightens me to see him hurt like this.

“No... It’s okay... no pain.. Just stay like this... please...” Uyu said, almost pleading. But this time, I have to disagree. He is wounded and needed to be treated.

“Please, Hyukkie.. Let go... we should call Leeteuk hyung... your wound is serious...” I plead. I don’t want to let go too but we have too.

“Don’t... please...” He finally looks up to my eyes. His eyes were so red because of crying too much... Otteokhae?

“I’m fine... just don’t... leave me... as long as you’re with me... I’ll be fine...” Uyu said between his muffled sniffs as he tugged in my shirt. I sigh in defeated for I know I can’t leave him too. We just stayed there, staying within each other’s arms. I could feel his breathing steadying slowly. I’m relieved now that he is calming down, bit by bit. Now I’m at ease. I just give a ring to Leeteuk hyung when he’s finally asleep.

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KRIING! KRIING!

“Yoeboseyo?”

Huh, this is definitely not Leeteuk hyung. “Kangin hyung?” I exclaimed. Guess they are together.

“Oh, Donghae-ah? Yeah!?” He answered.

“Where’s Leeteuk hyung, hyung? Need to see him badly?” I gasped.

“Well, Teukkie is sleeping... quite tired... you know...” Kangin hyung tried to explain. Eh? What is he trying to say? Ah... I don’t think I don’t want any too much information from their lovely night. Wah, Hyukkie!

“But I need Teukkie hyung now... Eunhyuk’s arm is wounded... We were ambush by thugs in the supermarket just now...” I panicked. Argh! I can’t think straight.

“Where are you now? Are you okay?” Kangin hyung asked.

Ayie? Isn’t he worried about Uyu too? Why is he only worrying about me?!

“I’m fine.. I’m fine.. But Uyu... the wound dried a bit... But he needs to be treated... hyung.. jebal... tell Leeteuk hyung!” I begged. I don’t know what will do now. Even if Uyu isn’t showing a sign of pain even if he’s wounded severely is scaring me. What if his wound got infected? He’ll die for sure. I don’t want to lose him.

“Hae, calm down... I’ll be there... just stay put... DUT------------------”

What!? Kanging hyung will come here? But what about Leeteuk hyung, isn’t he coming too? Kangin hyung is a veterinarian. He can cure animals but not humans. Otteokhae?!

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Okay, I slapped myself mentally. Kangin hyung can cure humans too. I can’t believe what I am seeing? Hyung is stitching the wound of Hyukkie so expertly. He covered it up with bandage and he’s done. He went to the bathroom and gets rid of the water that was mixed with Hyukkie’s blood. Damn! He lost a lot of blood. I hope he’s okay.

“Don’t worry Hae, he’ll be fine... He’s tougher than you thought.” Kangin hyung coax me. Yeah, for now I can relax a bit.

“Have you told anyone about this?” Kangin hyung asked me. I look at him and shook my head. I didn’t bring to the hospital and I don’t even know why. I didn’t alert the police since I don’t have time to think about it because Uyu is injured and that’s the only thing I can think of.

“Listen Donghae... don’t tell this to anyone especially to Leeteuk. It’s just you and me who knows this.”

“Huh?”

“We’re not sure yet of the situation and you know how Leeteuk will freak out if he learns about this.” Kangin hyung explained and reminded me. Yeah, Teukkie hyung would really freak out but still he has to know.

“But hyung?!”

“Please Hae, trust me. I know your situation is confusing but please trust me on this.” Kangin said with strong yet pleading eyes. It took minutes before everything was registered in my mind. I am confused, that is right but then I do wonder. Does Kangin hyung know something more that I don’t know? Does he know everything? Does he know Eunhyuk even before I met him?

“Hyung...”

“Always stay beside Hyukj- I mean Hyukkie. Arasso?” Kangin hyung reminded me. All I can do is nod. I’m too confused and shock of what is happening. Maybe my mind had gone crazy. Well, I’m already crazy over Uyu but then is beneficial than this one right now.

“I’ll be off now.. Call me when something happens. Remember, it’s just between you and me...” Kangin hyung reminded me. I simply give him a nod as I walked him to the doorstep. He pats my shoulder before leaving completely. I felt a burden in my mind and my heart. Everything is confusing. My mind couldn’t take it all in one go.

I went back to our room and still he is sleeping so soundly. I sat next to him even if he’s fast asleep. I sat to the chair next to our bed and take hold of his hand, clasping it between my palms. I kissed it and unknowingly, I eyes started to poured tears.

“Hyukkie... remember those words I told you before?” I started to talk to him. I don’t know if he’ll be able to hear me but I hope he will. I took a deep breath before mumbling again. I am uncertain of our future. I’m afraid of what’s going to happen next but I know something is for sure...

“No matter what happens, whatever your past is... I will and always love you... my heart will only beat for you...”

I caress his cheeks as I continue, “My Hyukkie, I love you...” I said and leaned closer to him and him on his lips. I rest back on the couch and stare at him as he continues his slumber. I will let my eyes only see Hyukkie, peaceful like this until dreamland took possession of my reality.

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There’s a lad on his early 20’s, climbing down the rope.

“I thought this house would give me more trill... I guess not.” The lad smirked. Finally, he jumps off. He glance back again to the house where he just did his deeds.

“This is the house of the owner of Pluto Insurance Company?! Should it have more guards?” He thought to himself.

CLANG! CLANG! CLANG!

The alarm suddenly turned on, Men in black suddenly appeared charging into the lad.

“This is the start of my game...” He smiled. He quickly dodges the attack of the man who charges at him first, grabbing his arms and tossing him in the air. He then kicks in the stomach another one and then punches another. Everyone tried to get him but no one succeeded for left them unconscious. He took one glance before walking away. Suddenly he felt a stinging pain by his neck and he passed out.

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“I want you to be our first Corvus. The protector of our jewel...” A man in his early 30’s said.

“What do I get from it?” The young lad said, filling his stomach with the breakfast before him in the bed.

“Anything... Everything is provided to you. Food, clothing, shelter... you don’t have to rob houses anymore to have a luxurious life. You don’t have to hide anymore for we will fix your robbery cases. All you need to do is to protect her at all times.” The older man said. The younger lad looks at the breakfast plate laid in front of him. It was luxurious and decent. Right now, he’s in a king size bed so soft and with fluffy pillows.

“It’s worth risking life with a purpose rather than risking life robbing countless of houses.” He thought to himself.

“I guess I had no choice...” He smirks at the older.

“Well, technically, it‘s a yes.” The older replied, amused how the lad thinks.

“I accept the offer.” He said firmly.

“Tell me, what is your name lad?” The older asked.

“Hyukjae... Lee Hyukjae...” He replied.

“From now on, you’ll be known as Eunhyuk, the first Corvus.” The older man said.

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“Hyukjae! Hyukjae! Hyukjae!” A girl shouted happily while running around the garden.

“Yah! Call me Eunhyuk... Eunhyuk and with OPPA!” The lad said with the name Hyukjae. Currently, he was ‘baby-sitting’ the so-called precious of to whom he is working for.

“Hyukjae! Hyukjae! Hyukjae!” The girl still continued, ignoring the rants of Hyukjae. Hyukjae just shrugged his shoulder as he stubbornly followed the said girl. The girl then stops and then looks at him.

“Ooh, then I’ll call you Hyukkie... yeah.. HYUKKIE HYUKKIE HYUKKIE!” The girl chirped happily. Eunhyuk just rolled his eyes unbelievably. Sometimes he asks himself, how a 20 year old girl can be that childish like her.

The girl instantly stops when she saw a man standing in front of her. Blush was tainted all over in her cheeks. A smirk started to form in Hyukjae’s face.

“Finally someone tamed the tiger...” He hissed, referring to the jewel he is guarding. The girl clearly heard him and glared at him. He just stood there acting all innocent and with ‘what-did-I-do’ face.

The girl just pouted and concentrated to the nearest tree trunk, his arms were crossed in his chest. He just stood there, watching the couple hugging and soon engaged to a kiss. He closes his eyes and look down. He placed his hand inside his pocket then walked away, not wanting to disturb the two.

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“I want to take Donghwa hyung’s place in missions.” Hyukjae said firmly.

“What do you mean? But Donghwa is the real Corvus. You’ll definitely get kill during the missions.” The older man said.

“Remember, I did do the first missions before Donghwa was created. Plus, isn’t protecting Haejin more important?” Hyukjae said. The older man then took a deep breath.

“If that is your wish... Meet us at 11 pm in the tower. Your new mission will be given there.” The older man replied. Hyukjae bows down and then take his leave. As he closes the door behind him, dark hallway welcomed him. There was a shadow that blocks his path.

“Hyukjae-ah, don’t do this...”

Hyukjae sigh when he heard those words. “It’s already done hyung...” He replied and taps the guy’s shoulder and then walks away.

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The three of them were in an amusement park, she requested to go there.

“Oh, this is fun. I’m glad he let Hyukkie to come with us.” The girl squealed.

“Yah, when are you going to call me oppa? It’s Eunhyuk oppa!” Hyukjae glared at the girl named Haejin. The girl just sticks out his tongue while she rides the Perris wheel.

“Not coming?” Donghwa asked when he notice that Hyukjae was about to go away.

Hyukjae glance back, his hands were in his both pocket. “Nah, I might disturb you. Enjoy! I’ll just take a walk around!” He said and completely left.


Hyukjae just explores around the amusement park. But then, he couldn’t stop but to think, “For a pregnant woman, she is sure childish!” He glance back again in the Perris wheel as it started to move.

“I think it will be wonderful to ride it with a special someone.” Eunhyuk smiled, his gums were showing. “Definitely next time, I will ride it with my special someone.” Hyukjae nodded to himself. As Hyukjae continues to walk, one shop caught her eyes.

‘Oh, this is the Monkey Music Box I’ve been trying to have when I was kid. I wonder how much is it now?’ He thought to himself. “I should get it to myself next time I’m here...” He said, smiling to himself with his gums showing again.

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“You can’t hide it to us anymore... we know that’s she’s pregnant.” The older man said. Eunhyuk’s eyes widens as the older man revealed what he learned.

“Don’t worry. We’re not going to ask her to abort the baby. We will use that baby after all, it carries the bloodline we needed. We’ll wait till she labors it. If it’s a girl, we’ll treat her as our new princess, but if it’s a boy, kill him for he is no use and a threat.” The older man explained.

Eunhyuk’s eyes look up. Anger is started to be paint in his face. “Kill it if it’s a baby boy? BWOOH?! What could a harmless baby boy do to threaten us?! How could you kill such an innocent baby?” Eunhyuk disagree. He slams his fist on the table, emphasizing his anger. He can’t tolerate that he is ordered to kill a harmless little baby that was just been born.

“You know what they can do, Eunhyuk. They can’t live or everything will be over for us.” The older man emphasizes his own belief.

“Fine, then don’t ask me to kill it for you...” Eunhyuk hissed angrily. He stormed out of the room, slamming the room behind him. Once again, the dark shallow hall welcomes him but this time, he heard muffled cries. He looks at both of the sides and finally she saw her in the end of the corridor

“Are they really going to kill my baby?” She asked and then slowly her cries became harder.

Hyukjae rushed to her and hug her tight. “Sssh.. everything is gonna be okay.. I promise you.. I wouldn’t let them touch your baby... Haejin ah” Hyukjae coax her. The girl then looks up, looking intently in her eyes.

“Oppa, promise me you’ll protect the baby... promise me you would do everything to protect him.. Promise me, oppa!” The girl pleaded.

“Of course I will, I promise you Haejin ah... I wouldn’t let them touch your child...” Eunhyuk promised as he held her closer to make her feel better.

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While waiting outside the delivery room, Eunhyuk just stood there, calm and relax unlike Donghwa who’s walking back and forth. Eunhyuk chuckled seeing his friend like that.

Eunhyuk approach him and tap his shoulder. “Hyung... calm down.. Everything is gonna be okay...” Eunhyuk coaxed him. The door of the delivery room burst open, revealing a doctor.

“It’s a boy!” The doctor announce as a baby’s cries can be heard in the background.

Eunhyuk forced out a smile. He pats Donghwa’s shoulder and then mouthed, “Congratulations!” before walking away.

Donghwa then followed him, grabbing him in his arm to stop him from walking. “Where are you going?” Donghwa asked.

“To fight them... I promised I won’t let them touch your kid... your son.” Hyukjae replied. Even though he has to go against the people who had saved him from hunger, shaped him to be one of the best, yet, their doings are wrong.... he cannot tolerate it anymore.

“Then let me fight with you...” Donghwa said.

Hyukjae then place a hand on Donghwa’s shoulder and smiles, “Hyung, don’t... when Haejin wakes up and is strong enough to go... escape with the baby... I’ll try my best to buy you some time...” He instructed.

“But...”

“Don’t worry about me... I can take care of myself...” Hyukjae reassured him. Donghwa nodded. He then gave Hyukjae a brotherly hug.

“Thank you... for everything...” He whispered before letting go.

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Eunhyuk stands there. In front of him where dozens of dead bodies that was scattered around. His body covered with blood, either with his or his enemy’s. He stands there, looking at the dreadful place lying in front of his eyes. He smiled weakly. Finally, his leg gave up as he falls down on his knees.

But uneasiness still won’t rest on his chest. Worries shoot him, thinking if Donghwa and Haejin had managed to get away.

“I... just have... to check.” Eunhyuk groaned, helping himself stand with the help of piled dead bodies before him.

Though he barely breathe at all; all the cuts, wounds and bruises had made his body numb. He barely feel pain as he stuffed his brain that at least, he had to check on his friend, Donghwa and his ‘jewel’ he had been guarding for years.

He went in many places to check were mostly he and Haejin will always go to meet up with Donghwa. Donghwa and Haejin were lovers and even Hyukjae was forbidden to tolerate their relationship, he still keeps on helping them.

“DAMN IT! Where are they?!” Hyukjae sobbed and he felt strange. He haven’t been crying since he remembered but this is making him upset and frustrated.

As he was about to lose hope finding him since this would be the last place he would think of hiding, he heard a voice. “HYUKKIE!” He heard, he glance back and saw a man, beside her is a woman carrying something in her hands.

It was Donghwa and Haejin, they were rushing to him.

Finally, Hyukjae let himself fall on his knees, he is well relieved that they are safe and so was the baby which is barely a day old.

“BABO, what are the two of you doing here?” He chokes out with difficulty as blood started to pour from his mouth. Having himself calm turns back all the pain his body is supposed to feel now. “You have to get out as far as you could.” He added.

“Hyukjae ah, I’m really sorry.” Donghwa coughed.

Hyukjae’s eyes widened as he saw Donghwa was coughing blood equally as he did. “What.... what happe—” H’s words was cut when he just noticed that Donghwa was shot on the chest part and even a Convus won’t survive that injury.

“Hon... you’ll be fine... look... look at me...” Haejin cried and cupped her lover’s face. “Stay with me... hold on... Don’t you want to see our little boy?!” She panics but her free hand is still carefully holding her son.

Hyukjae cleared his eyesight. The scene before him is too much for his heart which had never learned to care for anyone before until these two special persons showed up in his life. “Haejin ah...” He tried to calm her down.

Then they got disturbed when a loud banging was heard at the lower floor of that old building. Hyukjae cursed, “Damn. They found us.” Hyukjae tried to stand up and even though he barely fights at all, he is willing to die just to give the lovers chances to live.

But before he could even get away, Donghwa had already grabbed his hand back, “Hyukjae ah,” He breathes, “Please take my son away... leave with him right now.”

“No.. I can’t... I fight, you two get away.” Hyukjae said and stood up to ready himself to fight again. Dead or Alive.

“Take our son away. In that way, oppa... he has better chances to survive...” Haejin said and abruptly passed the baby to Hyukjae.

“I’ll hold them up...you go... NOW...” Donghwa screamed his last word.

“Haejin ah.... come with me...”

But Haejin just smiled faintly at Hyukjae then to her lover, “I’ll stay here with Donghwa. They can’t hurt me. They need me.”

“But—”
“Oppa, take him where it’s safe. You promise me that you’ll teach our son soccer when he grows older? Yah! You won’t be able to do that if you stay here and die...” Haejin tried to kid around but her tears couldn’t be contained and it started to roll down on his cheeks. “Look, he’s here... you said you’ll be his godfather didn’t you...?!” Haejin added and she started to cry again.

“What’s his... name?” Hyukjae manage to ask.

“Donghae...” Haejin sniffs.

“Donghae ah... I just hope you won’t be childish like your mother...” Hyukjae smiled as he manages to touch the little baby’s nose.

“Yah... I hope he won’t. Haejin’s childishness had been a pain in the ass.” Donghwa managed to joke around too.

“Go! You should go! Take care of Donghae...”Haejin said and pecked on her son one last time.

Hyukjae hesitated but as he calculate everything now, if he will managed to leave with the kid... the kid then will survive and so was his mother since basically they won’t hurt her... as for Donghwa... he rather not think worst about it.

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“He should be safe here.” Hyukjae muttered as he turns his back towards the baby he was asked to keep safe. He had placed it in a neat baby basket, warmth it up with a warm blanket then placed it before a door steps.

He rang the bell before he hid himself behind a black car to see what would happen. When the door opened, he saw a more like a seven year-old kid in there.

“Who’s that, Jungsoo ah?!” The father asked.

This Jungsoo shrugged and looked down to see something on the doorsteps. He then exclaimed, “Appa!!!! A baby boy!!!!”

“Huh?!” The father asked and checked as well. He then took a piece of paper then read. “Lee Donghae. October 15, 1986. Please take care of me.” He then read it all over again, “A baby for us?!”

“For us?! Should we keep him?! Please.... pretty please... I want a dongsaeng!!!” This Jungsoo kid flails around then leaned down to check on the baby, “Well, Donghae ah... You’re now part of our family...” He concluded without waiting for his father to answer.

“Okay... I guess this will do.” The father considered as they took Donghae in.

Hyukjae breathes in. He knew they would consider another kid. He had been spying on that father and son for quite a while now just to be sure that Donghae would be safe with them. He just hope that the security will last... and may be the big amount of money Hyukjae left with Donghae would make those people have the chance to get a better, well- off life.

Hyukjae knew they weren’t greedy at all but he just thought of giving money as well... they deserved it for being such a contended and nice people and for taking Donghae in without doubts.

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Hyukjae knew they would find him out so soon. He knew he has no escape away from them so he just has to give off and cut off his connection towards Donghae.

And so he was captured again and he care less now... whether they’ll punish him or kill him. His mission is done especially if Haejin had killed herself, believing that the cruelty would end with her death... and so was everyone thought.

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EUNHYUK’S POV

I abruptly sat up as I was awakened by that dreams. My eyes were in tears but I felt satisfied yet with fear.

I knew Donghae was awoken up by the sudden move in his hands and he knew that time that I had woken up. He looked at me and probably saw my eyes, tainted again with tears.

He went to sit beside me in the bed. “Hyukkie, are you okay?” He asked calmly.

I snap out of it and glance by Donghae’s side and he instantly hugged me. “It’s okay Hyukkie.. I’m here...” Donghae whispered in my ears. He ran soothing circles in my bareback because I as I remembered clearly, I was topless when Kangin treated me earlier.

I breathe steadily and Donghae I had calmed down.

What had just happened to me?! Those flashbacks... I hadn’t had one before. When I sleep, it’s all blackness but what are those scenes when I’m asleep?! And why... I was there?! Why are they calling me Hyukjae?! And why Donghae’s named had been repeated so many times?! Who are those people?!

I don’t know... I’m confused.

Those scenes are cruel... I’m glad it wasn’t real. I’ll blame what happened earlier. It may be triggered the fear in me that I managed to form those cruelties in my sleep. None of it is real... none of it at all.

I breathe out again against Donghae’s neck. This reality is much better than what I saw in my sleep... I should know... Donghae makes my life worth living beyond uncertainties.

I managed to smile, pushes back those dreadful scenes off my mind as I lick on his neck.

DONGHAE’S POV

I suddenly feel hot when I felt Hyukkie’s tongue trailing my neck.

“Aaah~” I moaned and I knowmy Fishy is widely awake now. The two of us stare at each other eyes, melting each other under our gazes. I kiss Eunhyuk in his forehead, down to his nose and then finally capturing his lips. Slowly, I lay Eunhyuk down again under me as ourr kisses become more passionate.

“Hae... make me yours tonight as well...” He pleaded.

“Your arm hurts...” I argued but I’m losing the last thread of my self- control.

“It’s not... Pallewa~” Uyu insisted and pulled me down closer to him as his hands were undoing the buttons of my shirt.

Ahh...This is going to be a long night.

Chapter by: EuNic monkEy
Edited by: MonShie09

[NC-17] BREATHE INTO ME (8/??)

Octavo Tumba:
Corvus


“Someone is on the door, Hae...” Uyu said when I got out from the bathroom, doing my personal business of course especially if it’s after dinner.

“Who?!”

“HAEEEEEEEEEEE HYUNGGGGGGGGGGGG!”

I don’t need to look around since I know who those people are who I may add had already entered my pad. “What are you two doing here?!” I asked Kibum and Kyuhyun. They’re both my co-workers in the company. “And who’s him?!” I asked a quiet guy behind Kyuhyun, a lot adorable than the evil looking Kyuhyun.

“He’s Sungmin. Our house boy.” Kyuhyun sneered. “Sorry. I just have to take him with me.” He said then whispered the rest of his words, “He’s quite clingy...”

I raised my brow then whispered back, “Your boy friend?!”

He smacked my head, “No... what are you thinking?! My dad just wants him around me all the time.”

“WHAT THE—” I raised my hand to bash him back but decided to let him off anyways then stared at Kibum, “You too here?! Did something happen to the company?! Why?!”

Kibum simply shrugged his shoulder then said, “You’re not in the office today so we might as well visit.” He said then walked over Eunhyuk who is quietly just staring at the scene, “Hi Uyunnie~” He beamed at him and Eunhyuk’s face reddened.

“DON’T COME NEAR HIM, KIBUM AH!” I glared at Kibum then hugged my monkey possessively knowing Kibum has been a danger to both men and women around. He’s a player.... and bisexual, I may add.

“Calm down. I was just curious. What happened to his arm?!” Kibum asked and tried to check on it and I answered him as what I said to Heechul hyung before. Hope it’ll work on him as well.

“Do you have something to eat there, hyung?!” Kyuhyun asked then smiled goofily, “Of course we are worried so we checked on you. That’s the reason why we visit.” He said defensively then added, “ It’s so not you taking day off so suddenly. You’re not sick, right?!”

I raised my brow, “No.” I simply said then said, “I have chocolate cake, will that be okay—”

“GREAT! TAKE IT OUT!” Kyuhyun said then seated himself on the floor and I would assume that he wanted to watch movie again while eating... like the way he would do before when he was new in Pluto Insurance Company. He used to hang around my pad and this kid wasn’t a bit bothered that I’m his sunbae.... maybe because he thinks he is richer than I do. He’s oblivious being like that but also smart.

“Geez. I wonder if you really came because you’re worried about me or you just want to eat on someone else’s house.” I said but took the untouched cake from the fridge anyways.

When I was giving them plates for the cake, I also handed tea and strawberry milk for Eunhyuk as well in case he would feel left out.

“Don’t bother giving him plate, hyung.” Kyuhyun said referring to their house boy while his eyes are still on the television.

I kicked him softly, “Aren’t you too cruel to Sungmin ah?!” I asked. I mean, I get it that Kyuhyun was a rich kid rascal and Sungmin was like a tiny piece of dirt for him compared to him. A master and servant relationship perhaps distinct their selves but he is being cruel and he can’t be like that around me.

Kyuhyun looked up at me, “Trust me. He doesn’t eat.”

“What do you mean he doesn’t eat?!” I raised my brow then smacked his head again, “Of course he won’t eat if his master would tell him not to.” I pointed out.

Sungmin cleared his throat and sipped from the tea I gave him, “I already ate back to young master’s house. I’m stuffed already. Thank you, master Donghae.” He said and his cute soft voice has this controlled tiny hatred in it. Maybe, even a servant gets annoyed too.

I smiled at Sungmin, “It’s okay but there are lots and lots for you in case you change your mind. If Kyuhyun is being a big ass, feel free to kick him hard, I’ll take responsibility.” I said then winked at him to encourage him.

“HAEEEEEE!”

I looked back to see Eunhyuk staring at me, his lips pursed and his chest is rising up and down really fast. Is he upset?! Is he jealous?!

“Sungmin... hyung?!.... Sungmin ah!!!! Donghae is mine. Kyuhyun is yours, arachi?!” Eunhyuk said then kept quiet at the corner again.

Sungmin bowed silently, “Yes, master Eunhyuk. Sorry, master.” He said and Kyuhyun sneered.

I blinked twice or maybe more than twice. I can’t believe my monkey just reacted like that. I don’t know what to feel. I got scared of him but at the same time, I felt happy. Oh... I love how he seems to be possessive of me. I smiled then went closer to him to cuddle him, “Of course, I’m yours. And don’t worry because a servant like Sungmin won’t betray his master. Although I hope someday Sungmin would stand up and kick Kyuhyun’s ass.”

“YA hyung! Just how much do you want to kick my ass, huh?” Kyuhyun asked me then glared at me.

I pretended to think deeply about it then said, “Ehmmm... like every time I see you playing PSP at work, you cheeky rascal!” I glared back at him.

Kyuhyun just ended up chucked his evil laugh again then ignores me to finish what he’s watching on the television like he is in his own house. A rich kid indeed.

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Somewhere in Seoul.

3rd POV


“What brings you here Sungmin-ah? Is my Kyuhyun alright?” A man asked a lad who just arrive.

“Yes, young master is fine. I need to talk to Master Lee Sooman.” Sungmin requested.

They didn’t know that a woman was eavesdropping.

“Why do you need to talk to Sooman sangsaengnim? Is it important?” The old man asked.

“Yes… it’s about Eunhyuk.. I found out who he is staying with.” Sungmin said, his face was emotionless. His face doesn’t show despair nor happiness. He is built being like that after all.

The woman who is eavesdropping gasped silently. She quickly went away. She gets her phone and dialed someone’s number. “It’s the only way…” She hissed to herself before she pressed the call button.

“Yobeoseyo?” A man answered the other line.

“I know you’ve been keeping an eye on our company and its dark secrets. You know the whereabouts of ‘Corvus’ and especially about Eunhyuk… and Lee Donghae.” She said confidently.

“Who are you? How—”

“My name is not important but you need to move now. They located Eunhyuk. Definitely they’ll find out about Donghae soon too... move now and relocate them.”

“But—”

“Just trust me… include everyone who has connections with Donghae and Eunhyuk especially Leeteuk. They might use him as their bait to lure the two. Please, just trust me as I have trusted you…” She breathes out. She didn’t wait anymore for their answer as she put the phone down.

“Please save my nephew… as you saved my daughter…” She whispered. Her tears started to pour down from her orbs.

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“How can you do this Eunhyuk-ah?” A man shouted in disappointment and anger. His voice was harsh and bitter. It frightens the woman eavesdropping from afar but she has to be strong. She heard grunts and groans because of pain after every clash of a leather rope to fresh part of the body.

“After what everything we gave you? How we morphed you to who you are now… after I trusted you to be the one who’ll understand what I’m doing. You- you’ll just throw everything away just for one life.” The man said. Another sound of clashes of the leather rope was heard.

“Haejin baby is a boy?” The woman mumbled. She couldn’t help to cry when she remembers about her dongsaeng who took her life expecting that everything will end... without knowing that she isn’t the only ‘jewel.’ There is still her who can support the experiments no matter how she hated it herself.

She didn’t even get to be with her when she was down. She felt so useless as the big sister of Haejin... at least.... she could do something for her nephew she had never laid an eye yet.

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When she’s sure that nobody was around the prison cell, she went there in the middle of the night and check on him. She open the door and gasped when she saw a man, tied upside down in feet, his arms were tied on his back and his body were full of bruises and cuts and scars.

“Omo.” She quickly rushes to him. She carefully cut the rope to put him down and cut the rope binding his arms. She rested his head on her lap and tried to wake him up.

“YA!!!… don’t die on me!” She cried, slapping him softly on his cheeks to wake him up.

“*coughs* W-water *coughs*” He coughed out weakly. Again, blood spurted from his mouth. The woman gets up and carefully laid him to the cold floor covered stained with his own blood. She hurriedly went out and gets some water. She came back and raised his head carefully to let him drink water. She rested again half of his body on her lap as she hold onto him.

“Is that you Hyori-ah noona?” The man said.

“Neh… It’s me… Hyukjae ah.” The girl named Hyori smiled giving a relief on the young man.

“Ah… at least when our little Donghae finds out everything… he’ll still... have… a real blood family... of his own…” Eunhyuk smiled faintly. He knows about Hyori’s existence and he also knows that he isn’t allowed to tell Haejin before that her sister is alive. He regretted keeping it.

“Hyukkie ah, what happened to Donghae? Where is he?” Hyori asked. She needed to make sure Donghae is safe. It’s the only thing she can do for her sister she didn’t met for almost 12 years, letting Haejin believe she’s dead.

“He’s safely adopted…by Park… Jungnim… my mission is complete…” Eunhyuk said and then cough out blood again.

“YA! Don’t die on me… please, you’re the only family I can call for now…” Hyori cried.

“Let me rest for now Hyori noona… I’m tired…” Hyukjae pleaded.

“Hyukjae YAAA! andwae! I don’t want to be alone again.” Hyori cried more.

Hyori had been alone all her life. She was taken away from her childhood because of her great thinking. They say she inherited her brains from their grandfather which started everything. She was force to study and take part in the development of the ‘Corvus project’. She envied her sister a lot that’s why when she knew she was pregnant, she told them. But she learned she was wrong and now it’s time to set things right once again. She knew Hyukjae when he replaced Donghwa in doing missions and like to her sister, Eunhyuk became a good friend to her.

“Hyukjae ah, you must live again… you must… you must transform now to be a ‘Corvus’ like you were entitled to be…” Hyori then said.

“Give me a… purpose Hyori…. Give me a purpose to live again… and be a complete corvus…” Hyukjae said weakly. He was having a hard time now talking.

“As long as Donghae is alive… we have hopes to end this... to end everything…” Hyori said. She took a deep breath as her tears started to pour down from her eyes and then she continued, “Donghae must live but without you… he has slight chances… Didn’t you promise Haejin that you’ll never let them touch Donghae.”

“I then trust you everything Hyori-ah… but for now let me rest…” Eunhyuk said as he slowly close his eyes.

“Maybe after I woke up, Donghae will be the first one I’ll see...” He mumbled and then heave his last breathe. Hyori just closes her eyes, accepting the fate between all of them.

“I’ll do everything to protect Donghae… until you finally come back Hyukjae ah…”

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“Eunhyuk is dead.” Hyori announced to Lee Sooman. Sooman stiffened but then ignored it and continued to browse some files.

“I will take hold of Eunhyuk’s body. I-I will… make him a Corvus.” Hyori stammered a bit. Sooman’s attention was caught by her words. He looked at her with questioning looks. “You wanted a perfect Corvus right? I can give you but let it be only Eunhyuk.” Hyori continued, demanding in o nher last statement.

“No, it has to be another... I-I can’t trust Eunhyuk anymore.” Sooman said, staring at Hyori.

“Then I’ll remove his memories. He’ll be a new one once he became a Corvus. After all, he is the first entitled to be a Corvus from the start.” Hyori said, firmness can be trace in her voice.

“Then do what you must...” Sooman nodded.

”I’ll make sure Donghae will be safe once he is beside Eunhyuk once again.” Hyori thought as she walked away.

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Hyori was checking the cooled body of Eunhyuk. It has a steady breathing but no heartbeat. That is one of the abnormalities of being a ‘Corvus’. Their heart won’t beat when they are fast asleep aside from having more advance skills. She was checking his vital signs and everything seems to be normal. Of course, she has to report everything to Lee Sooman. They had kept Eunhyuk for almost 23 years. They say, they’ll release him when the time has come but Hyori doesn’t know the purpose of keeping Eunhyuk that long. Though she was thankful, Eunhyuk hasn’t yet been release or if they did, their plan won’t work effectively.

She was about to knock on Lee Sooman’s office when she heard that Sooman was talking to someone inside.

“WHAT?! So Haejin’s son is alive?” Sooman said.

“I believe, Sir. We are starting to trace him. We believe he was adopted by a family.” The guy reported.

“He must be found before those THUGS find out about him. That kid is our weakness. As long as the boy is alive, our success will be in ruins.” Lee Sooman finally yelled in anger, slamming his fist on his table. Hyori was shocked. How did they trace Donghae? She hopes she isn’t too late yet. She needed to act fast to save her nephew.

“Hyukjae…” She mumbled out of nowhere. She rushed to the room where Hyukjae lies.

She stared first to Eunhyuk’s sleeping face and smile. “Hyukkie, it’s time…” She mumbled as she started the process to release him.

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Hyori was in a black car. She was looking at a dumpsite. She glances at the passenger’s seat. There’s this guy, only covered with white blanket. His red hair was slightly covering his closed eyes.

“Hyukkie ah… I guess this is goodbye for now… Remember your promise, arasso?!… Take good care of my nephew, Arachi?” Hyori said, smiling in bitterness but with hope. A tear rolled down from her left eye.

“It’s your time to protect him… Thank you oppa… for everything... not just for Donghae… but for us… you became a friend we could rely on… aniyo… a family we can call our own.” Hyori breathes out with easiness and blissful feeling. She then continued,” You even save us, not just physically but emotionally too. I hope you would do the same for Donghae… save him from everything. But for now…” She stops.

She then get Eunhyuk’s hand and put it between her palms saying, “For now, enjoy your life and start a new… Even if you are now a Corvus, live your life to the fullest...and then remember everything again… when it’s needed…” Hyori smiled.

She parked her car in front of the dumpsite and then carefully laid Eunhyuk there. She knew Donghae would pass by that way. She just hopes that Donghae would really keep Eunhyuk as she speculated. Knowing Donghae’s caring nature, she is sure he’ll take care of Eunhyuk for now. She then get in her car and park it to more afar place but with better view.

She had almost lost hope when it’s almost midnight and Donghae isn’t yet passing by but her hopes came back when she finally saw him.

“Ah.. you have really grown to a fine man…” She praised her nephew secretly. She saw everything. How Donghae tried to check on him, and check if somebody is around. How Donghae walk away first but decided to come back and took Eunhyuk in. She was glad and at ease now. Now, everything is up to Eunhyuk and maybe to Donghae too.

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“Hyori sangsaengnim?” Someone called.

“Oh, Hangeng sshi, what’s wrong?” Hyori look at her back. There was a Chinese lad standing behind her.

“They have found out about Eunhyuk, are you going to do something? They might find out about Donghae too?” Hangeng asked.

“It’s already done Hangeng ah. You should rest now. It’s late. We still need to finish our observations to Ryeowook before we proceed to the actual process.” Hyori patted Hangeng’s shoulder and leave for her chamber.

As what he was told, Hangeng went back to his own room. He stared at the mirror. In that mirror was a picture clips to its side. Every time he has a chance to stare at it, he would and if humanly possible, he won’t blink at all. He sighed, “I wonder where you are now. Are you still mad at me?” Hangeng asked.

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DONGHAE’S POV

I was woken up by a doorbell again. I groaned when I know it was almost 3am in the morning. I carefully sit up not to wake Eunhyuk who is fast asleep. He is cute and peaceful looking when he is looks like that.

I couldn’t stay pissed then after seeing his face but I still wonder who will rang the bell early at dawn. I sighed then look at the CCTV attached to the wall just before the main door to check who it was. My brow crossed when it was Kibum so I opened the door, “Did you forget something?!” I asked.

He looked passed me then said, “Wake Hyukj— Eunhyuk up. Palle...!”

“Huh?!” I asked and I would blame my half-sleepy mind right now that is making my brain malfunction.

Then another person came and my eyes widened, “Palle... Donghae ah... We have to go. Grab anything you have to bring.”

“Kangin hyung?!” I asked. What the hell is happening?! “You two know each other?!” I asked.

“I’ll explain on the way, Hae....” Kangin said then added, “Wake Hyukjae up. Now!” He said.

“Hyukjae?! Who?! You mean, Eunhyuk?!” I asked. I’m really lost right now.

Kibum suddenly sighed, “Hyukjae ah! Let’s go.”

“Me?!”

I looked back to see Eunhyuk pointing at himself. Our noise must have awakened him up. “We are okay, Hyukkie...” I calmed him down.

Kangin rested his hands on my shoulder, “Hae... we have to go before they get here. We have to get away as far as it is safe.” He then stared at Eunhyuk, “Hyukjae, we have to go. You have to at least remember anything.”

“You... called me Hyukjae... Like... people call me in my dream.” Eunhyuk suddenly said then moved really slowly to Kangin hyung, “C...corvus... are they... looking for me?!” He asked.

Kibum suddenly have his mouth open, “Woah... So you are really Hyukjae. You.... really exist and I’m... why now?!”

“WAIT! I’m confused!” I asked and I’m digesting everything slowly and not because I just woke up but because I am getting afraid that my Eunhyuk is actually remembering things bit by bit. Dreams?! Is it last night?!

Kangin eyed me understandingly, “I promise I’ll explain everything on our way, Hae. Grab your phone and let’s go..” Then added, “And you too Hyukjae ah. We have to get you out here safely."

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“Who is Haejin and Donghwa?!” I heard Eunhyuk asked Kangin. Kibum was currently driving to somewhere I don’t know.

I bit my lower lip. Eunhyuk is finally remembering and I have this selfish fear that is eating me up. Will he leave me if he remembers everything fully?!

“They are your friends.” Kangin just said.

Eunhyuk or should I rather call him Hyukjae?! Hyukjae bowed down and muttered, “Haejin and Donghwa are Donghae’s parents?!” He asked attentively.

“Yes.” Kibum and Kangin both said.

“My parents?! BWOOH?!” I exclaimed.

I know I’m adopted. I know I wasn’t Leeteuk hyung’s real brother since I have Lee as surename and he has Park... of course I wondered when I was young and they didn’t lie to me. But... I never got any information about my real parents. And what does Eunhyuk... I mean Hyukjae, knows about my real parents?! Who is he?!

“WHO AM I?!” Hyukjae asked the two of them. “I’m I the same as Hyukjae in my dream?! I’m confused.” He said and knowing him... as Eunhyuk... I know he is asking honestly with his ever adorable innocent self.

Kangin breathes out, “You are Lee Hyukjae. An orphan kid who lives off from robbing rich people’s house but a company had took you in. They trained you to be better than you were to protect their ‘jewel’, Haejin. When Donghwa was the first corvus ever created, he took your responsibility as you took his. They both became your best friends. They died when Donghae was born. You and Donghae were the lone survivors that night of October 15, 1986 after you opposed to your company. You took good care of Donghae until you gave him off to Leeteuk’s family. You then surrendered and in an unexpected situation, they transformed you into a corvus and became the first successful corvus. Then they reserved you for almost 23 long years. That’s why you never aged. You were only out... just now and I don’t know why, especially when you don’t know anything. Your creator must have washed off your memory.”

“I’m...not human?!”

“You are human... only more advanced.” He then breathes out, “Sad to say, Hyukjae ah. I can’t trust you even a bit. I don’t know what you’re mission... and why are you sent after 23 years.”

“What do you mean...?! You... don’t trust... me?! On what?!”

“Donghae.”

“SHUT UP! I don’t want to hear any more of it.” I was finally able to find my voice. I understood everything. I do because I’m not stupid. I do believe because it all makes sense.

Starting from the day I found him, the way he acted, the way his reflexes are so flawless, the way he don’t eat anything at all, the way he would just fall into a deep sleep but no heartbeat at all. Just... the way he would look up at my baby pictures... does he unconsciously remember me?! Does he?!

“I would never kill Donghae. I had saved him once and I will do it again.”

I dared to look at his side and I saw his glare on Kangin equally on Kangin’s intensity. He is daring him. But what touched me more is when he sniffled and started on sobbing like how he would do when he is confused of things. He didn’t change after all.

“But it’s different now. You were human then. You are a Corvus now.” Kangin said right away.

“I will never do it.... I love, Hae... hyung.” Eunhyuk sobbed then looked at me, “Has your love changed, Hae?!” He asked, his eyes are clouding in tears.

I stiffened up then shook my head, “Never.” Then I drew him near to my tight embrace. I pecked on his hair, “I had decided that no matter what your past, I would still love you, right?! Your past is my past. I accept my past and I accept you.”

“Hae—”

“Hyung, stop it. Just tell me how the hell we can get out of here.” I pleaded.

Kangin breathes out, “Corvus are everywhere, Donghae. You might not know if you see them every day or not. Corvus... they created dozens of them after Eunhyuk was created but your dad was their first sample. Donghae... they would find you even you will hide to the ends of the Earth. Hyukjae... you were the most important corvus ever created, they’ll do anything to have you back. I’m betting, someone had secretly disposed you without the others knowing it.”

Kibum added, “With that, we still... we’ll trust you.” Kibum smiled his bright smile.

“Who would sneak Eunhyuk out?!” I asked.

“... someone who knows Eunhyuk and someone who knows your whereabouts.”

“Someone like?!... Like Hy-hyori?!” Eunhyuk asked, “ I think I’m remembering everything now...”

He added and that words just struck me. Is this for real?! How badly are we endangered?! How will our future be like?! If my dad is a Corvus, am I human?!

Especially, just how much has he remembered?! Will he leave me!? Will his love for me stay the same?! I don’t know.

Then I remembered to ask, “Kangin hyung, Kibum ah... Just what are your roles in my life?!” I asked.

They both looked at each other and chorused, “Somebody you can trust beyond words.”

Huh?! Can I really?! Right now, I would need someone like them and I'll just hope nobody is lying to me right this moment.
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Knock! Knock! Knock!

Kibum knock on the door. Currently, we arrive in a house near the coast. I glance back at Eunhyuk. He was clinging to my arm so tight. The door of the house opened, revealing a tall young man.

“Oh… Kangin hyung… Kibum hyung… Wait, is that—”

“I’ll explain late,r Siwon… just let us inside.” Kangin hyung said. This Siwon guy nodded and move aside to let us in.


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Here we are in the living room. I’m sitting in the couch with Hyukkie beside me. Everything is freaking me out honestly. I have to know everything.

“Care to tell me everything, hyung?” I finally asked, breaking the silence that was reigning. I eyed Kangin hyung, demanding for him to talk with my stare. I can’t believe he knew everything already. Maybe that’s why he suggested naming Eunhyuk ‘Eunhyuk’ because it is his name originally.

I look back and saw Uyu or Eunhyuk or Hyukjae. Aish! Honestly, sometimes I don’t know if I can trust anyone anymore. But I need Hyukjae safe more than myself and I would need Kangin hyung and Kibum's help. I have the feeling... I should trust them as they said. I will... for my Uyu's sake.

“Calm down Donghae hyung… just sit back and we’ll tell you everything.” Kibum said. We’ll he better tell me. He has a lot of explaining to do.

“As we said before… your parents were Uyu’s, I mean Hyukjae’s s friends. When the company discovered that your mother will bore a child, they watch out if it’ll be a boy or a girl. For them, a boy carrying that bloodline is a threat to them.” Kibum started to explain.

“Bloodline? How come?” I asked. My bloodline? Am I a vampire of something?

“You see, your great grandfather experimented a lot on his blood. He is somekind of a mad genius scientist. He wanted to invent something that can make someone live longer or delaying death. He took a lot of potions he invented thus making your blood different from others, something like mutating it. It made your bloodline special.” Kibum breathes in before continuing, “The founder of Pluto Insurance Company-”

“Pluto Insurance Company? The one we work for?” I cut in.

“Yes, that’s why I’m working there to observe the company and at least unlock some of their plans hopefully, hyung. Also, to keep an eye on you of course.” Kibum explained. Okay, this is getting confusing. The company I work for is some kind of a dark company and one of the employees under me is some kind of a spy?

“Let me explain fully first Donghae hyung…” Kibum said and I have to agree. I must listen first so I can understand fully. He then continued, “The founder of the company who has the same but with darker motivations discovered it and trick your great grandfather in working with them but eventually your family became prisoners of the company. For the company, your bloodline is important because it had different effects to those who died from poisons, drugs and such and those who are experimented carefully. And that made the Corvus to exist.”

“Wait, died? Corvus are d-….dead?” I stiffened up as I stood up. If they say Corvus are dead people and they say Eunhyuk is the most important Corvus… then,

“Yes, Eunhyuk was already dead.” Kangin hyung finished my conclusion.

“He died …” Kangin hyung’s voice became hoarse. “…saving your life.”

I can’t believe it. Slowly I turned my head, there’s Uyu , sitting on the couch. His eyes were pooled with tears. Did he just say those words? My parents… him… did they all die because of me? Did everything happen because of me?

My knees became weak, as I face Eunhyuk, kneeling in front of him. You suffered a lot and it’s all because of me. I felt hot tears streaming to my face as I cupped his cheek, also drenched with his own tears.

“Corvus were created for selfish cause.” Kangin explained from the background but my eyes stayed to examine my Eunhyuk’s face. Kangin then continued, “They were created solely for rich people, Hae. Those rich people who feared for their safety and willing to pay big amount of money to make sure they are safe. And so, Corvus were introduced to them. Corvus are just pure emotionless recycled dead human being working for rich people.... they couldn’t even go after their free will... even they wished to end their own second life.... they can’t do that.”

“So, there is Corvus around...?!” I asked.

Kibum nodded, “Take Kyuhyun and Sungmin for example.” He said and that made me shock. I mean, I know Kyuhyun since he entered the company I have been working since I started working. He continued, “Kyuhyun is just a typical rich kid who has rich parents who is willing to pay big amount of money for a corvus to keep their kid safe.”

I bit my lower lip then sighed, “Is there...” I don’t actually know what I’m going to say or ask. I’m too shock of all this.

“We wished to end it, Hae.... Not all corvus are happy to this. We need you, Hae, to end this.”

I looked back to Kangin hyung, “Huh?! ME?! How?!”

“Females from your family run blood to create a corvus... males in your family ends it. Your blood will end everything, Hae... you blood is a poison to corvus... with that, they will do anything to kill you since you are a threat to their success.”

“Wait... my... blood is... poison to a corvus?!” I asked and wishing it wasn’t the case. Eunhyuk is a corvus and if it’s the case then, I’m also a threat to Eunhyuk?! NOOOOOOOO!

Kangin eyed Donghae apologetically. “Well... might, Hae... but as long as you don’t expose your blood when Eunhyuk is in his weakest. That’s what we believed. It might not the case, Hae.”

I pursed my lips in frustration, hopelessness and hatred. What the hell is going on?! I get it but I’m way too shock to accept all of this!

“I’m okay, Hae....” Eunhyuk suddenly assured Donghae.

“I’m sorry…” I whispered. He suffered a lot… because of me… he even lost his life because of me. He’s been protecting me. I thought I was the one taking good care of you but it was the other case.

Aside from that, it seems like I’ll be his death... again. This is just so frustrating. “…I’m s-sorry..” I choke out those words. Why must you suffer for me? Why?

I lean my forehead to his. His hand cupped my hands.

“Don’t… it’s worth it... everything is worth it…” He managed to say. He stared at me, forming a little smile.

“It’s worth dying… if it’s for you… MY DONGHAE…” He said. I felt guilty but at the same time happy. I always feared that know his past, aniyo, our past, everything might be gone. Everything might change but then… it just grew stronger. Our love… it won’t fade… no matter what lies ahead.

“I love you… Lee Hyukjae...” I mumbled as I look at him. “I’m not scared.” I added.

“I love you too, Lee Donghae…” He said. We brought our faces together and our lips met. A kiss was made, made by our love.


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EUNHYUK’S POV

“I love you… Lee Hyukjae...” He mumbled as he looks at me with tenderness in his eyes.

“I love you too, Lee Donghae…” I said. We brought our faces together and our lips met. No matter what happened, our love would never fade, right?

“Where are you going Kangin hyung?” We instantly let go of each other lips as I heard Kibum. We look to Kangin hyung and he seems to be going somewhere.

“I need to pick Leeteuk up, to make sure he’ll be fine.” Kangin hyung said. His voice is different like how he talks to us before. It scares me.

“I’ll go with you, hyung.” Kibum protested.

“No, stay here. I can go on myself just fine.” He said as he took out his gun from a drawer. Omo, is Leeteuk hyung endanger too?

“I’ll go with you hyung!” I shouted. I can’t let Leeteuk hyung get hurt.

“No, we’ll come with you...” This time Donghae shouted. His hand is firmly intertwined with my hand. I know he is saying in his actions ‘I’ll never leave your side so whether you like it or not, I’m coming’. Yeah, Donghae could be childish like his mother on how I remember her to be but then he’s just true to his self.

“No… I can’t involve you both... especially you Hyukjae-ah…” He looks at us. I don’t know why but it’s piercing my heart on how he shot those eyes on me.

“I’m sorry Hyukjae-ah.. but I… I- I can’t trust you just yet..” His last words before he left completely. Kangin hyung? Should I even call him hyung? But… All I know is, I can feel hand wrapping my shivering body as I let myself cry again.

How can I gain Kangin and Kibum’s trust?! I trust him. With my real Eunhyuk’s instinct, I know I could trust him. It’s not that hard but what’s much harder is, how can I gain their trust especially if it involves Donghae?!

Oh god... Can I complete this mission again without failing this time?!

Oh please...

[NC-17] BREATHE INTO ME (9/??)

Nueve Tumba :
TRUST MY HEART


Kangin speeds up his car. The sun is peeking already, ready to greet the people but still there are just few cars travelling. He gets his phone and dialed their house number.

KRIIIIIIIING!

“Come one… Pick it the phone… Hon. Damn it!” He cursed to himself. He knew Leeteuk is still sleeping and quite a heavy sleeper too.

“Aish! Please be alright…” Kangin could only mutter, still speeding up.

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LEETEUK’S POV

Yawn! Ah, what a great morning? Hmm, let’s see. Today I have lots of appointments so I need to move now. I look at my side to wake Kangin up. Huh? Where’s Kangin?

“Youngwoon-ah!” I shouted. I’m sure he doesn’t have an earlier schedule than mine. I’m always the first one to get up. What time is it anyways?

“ARGHH!” It’s already quarter to eight. I have appointments by eight. Andwae! Aish! I overslept again. I hurriedly went to the bathroom and took a bath. I stumble a bit getting my things.

Polo shirt! Polo shirt! Argh! Pants! I need pants! Shoes, where’s the shoes? Where did Youngwoon even go at the first place? He should have waked me up. Ah, what else. Phone? Yeah! Wah! My phone!

Thug! Tsuuk! Crash!

Ouch, I slipped. Watta? I glance up and saw the vase in our table beside the sofa broken. Huh? I stand up once again to check what broke it.

Thug!

Tsuuk! Bang! Crash! Tsuuk! Bang! Crash! Bang! Bang!

I crashed down, protected by someone above me. I open my eyes and saw Kangin.

“What the heck is happening?” That’s all I can say. I’m confused. Are we being ambushed?

“Just trust me… Let’s go…” He said as he pecked my forehead. Currently, we are covered by the sofa in our sala. I’m afraid. Still ducking, we tried to hide. The gunshots stopped a bit but then continued.

What’s going on? What did we do to be ambush like this? I don’t know anymore. Please, let us be in peace. I just want a peaceful life. We hide by the counter in the kitchen after we manage to get out of that mess in the living room. My home, our home… it’s all in mess. I glance by Kangin and then…

“What is that Youngwoon ah?” I asked. Are my eyes deceiving me? Am I really seeing him holding a gun?

“Just trust Hon, I promise you… everything will be over soon…” He said reassured me as he held my hand. I can’t speak and just give him a nod.

“Just follow me and don’t let go of my hand...” He instructed me. We went past the counter, heading to the door that leads to the backyard and then he slowly open it and peeked.

“Let’s go…” He hissed but then he pushed me back when I heard gunshots again. When will all of these stop?

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NORMALPOV

Leeteuk covered his ears. He couldn’t take it anymore the thunder shouts of gunshots. Kangin on the other hand exchanges bullets. He was able to eliminate some but they are just too many.

“Shit!” He cursed when he knew he was out of bullets. Now, how are they gonna escape this?

The door suddenly opened, revealing…

“H-Hyukjae?” Kangin gasped when he saw Eunhyuk. Leeteuk looked up and asked in surprise.

“Uyu?” He was surprise to see him, especially holding a gun. His hand stained with blood and Kangin even called him Hyukjae. He was unsure if he knows the guy standing in front of them.

“Are you both okay?” Eunhyuk asked. His chest was moving up and down, catching his breath once in a while.

“Yeah… we’re just fine.” Kangin answered, bit sarcasm in his tone. Eunhyuk just understands. He knows he can’t get yet the trust he wanted from Kangin. He just heaved a sigh or relieved that both were okay.

He then look at Leeteuk, he knows those eyes he is showing. He knew Leeteuk is confuse and afraid. He just let go of his gun and rushed to hug Leeteuk.

“Everything is gonna be alright… Trust us hyung… especially Kangin hyung.” Eunhyuk smiled at Leeteuk as he let go of him. He was showing his gummy smile to reassure the worrying hyung.

“When everything is over… you’ll teach me more… ne, hyung?” Eunhyuk asked in happy and usual tone.

“Teach me too how to TOP Donghae… I want to try too… somehow… Does that feel good too?” Eunhyuk said showing his curiosity, somehow it made Leeteuk smiling, calming himself from all of there. Kangin watch what Uyu or Hyukjae as he preferred. He knew he maybe a Corvus but some things would never change even Eunhyuk is a Corvus. He know deep inside, he is still Lee Hyukjae or Uyu he met during those training years through stories and reports and now who he met as Uyu. A person he could trust.

“Hyukkie… Hyung! Let’s go!” Someone shouted outside.

“D-Donghae?” Leeteuk asked unbelievably.

“What the heck is he doing here?” Kangin snarled to Eunhyuk.

Eunhyuk quickly apologize, “Sorry, he wouldn’t listen to Kibum or even to me…” Eunhyuk confessed pouting.

“Aish, let’s go!” Kangin just hissed. He held Leeteuk’s hand and softly dragged him out and they were followed by Eunhyuk. Kangin was surprise when he saw everyone like down and unconscious. Leeteuk’s eyes also widened.

“Did you all do this?” Kangin eyed Eunhyuk and same goes for Leeteuk.

“Yeah, when they are busy firing on you.. I knocked them out one by one…” He smiled proudly of himself, and then continued, “Though I didn’t kill them… just knocked them unconscious. They’ll wake up soon.” Eunhyuk reported with a gummy smile and a victory sign. Kangin rolled his eyes. Eunhyuk surely is innocent after all.

“Let’s go… that soon might be really soon.” Kangin said as they continue to walk to the car where Donghae is driving. They didn’t notice that one man is already gaining consciousness. He saw the three heading for the car. With his remaining strength, he reached for his gun and then pulled the trigger.

BANG!

Kangin look to his back where Leeteuk was. He was Leeteuk’s shock face, staring to something. He then looked where Leeteuk’s eyes were concentrated. There he saw Eunhyuk who knocked the guy. But when he face them, the left side of his tummy was bleeding but once again, he isn’t showing any pain.

“Are you okay, hyung?” Eunhyuk smiled. Leeteuk could just nod. For him, it was impossible. When he heard the gun shot, he was so sure that it will land into him but then he felt a gusting wind. One second, Eunhyuk was just behind and when he looked at the one who nearly shot him, Eunhyuk already knocked down the guy. And now, Eunhyuk is even bleeding but no sign of pain can be seen. What had just had happened?

BEEP! BEEP! BEEP!

“Let’s go!” Donghae said making sure he is composed. Truthfully, seeing Eunhyuk in action still scares him and now his lover is shot again. And it’s even more critical since it’s beside his stomach. He remembers again the pain Eunhyuk went through just to save him before and now he is doing it again, saving those who are important to him too.

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Donghae was beside Eunhyuk as Kibum treated the wound earlier. Of course, by that time Eunhyuk was again fast asleep.

“No wonder hyung madly fell in love with Uyunnie, he does have a milky white skin.” Kibum smiled as he put the bandage to Eunhyuk’s wound and that made him earn a glare from Donghae.

“I’m just kidding… Just to relax you, hyung. Don’t worry. He’ll be fine. You know Corvus right, hyung?” Kibum chuckled, putting back the things he used for the treatment when everything is done.

“Are they really dead people?” Donghae curiously asked, he still can’t believe it sometimes. Kibum get a chair and sat beside Donghae.

“Yes, hyung… they are dead and was experimented to have reaction with your bloodline.” Kibum said, putting a hand on his shoulder. Donghae buried his face on his palms. “Well, not all are successfully becoming Corvus. The more painful their death is, the more chance of being a Corvus.” Kibum continued to explain.

“Why, is your feeling changing towards our Uyunnie?” Kibum eyed, raising his eyebrow up and down.

“Hell no...” Donghae quickly snapped out of it.

“Well, if you are… just tell me so I can have Eunhyuk to myself. I don’t mind dating a dead person.” Kibum teased.

“Yah, Kim Kibum!” Donghae bashed Kibum.

“I’m just kidding. You can have him to yourself. Bye, I’ll leave you both alone.” Kibum pats Donghae’s shoulder then left.

Outside the room, there is Kangin standing, his back leaning on the wall and silently watching Leeteuk who is silently drinking a hot coffee over the kitchen.

“Hi Hyung.” Kibum greeted.

“Yah, didn’t I tell you to guard those two, especially Donghae?” Kangin hissed, ready to bash Kibum’s head.

“I’m sorry, they just slip through me. They’re quite fast you know.” Kibum said explaining his self. Kangin then heaved a sigh, he wasn’t in the mood to argue anymore.

“And what’s that Siwon doing?!” Kangin asked since if Kibum was too slow to watch over the two, then maybe Siwon can handle it.

“Hmmm.... he wasn’t here. You know, he went to his daily routine.” Kibum explained then added to ask, “So, what’s the deal with your lover, hyung?” Kibum asked.

“Huh? Ah, honestly…” Kangin then breathed in before continuing, “… I don’t know.”

“Have you talked to him everything?” Kibum asked.

“No. I haven’t got the courage yet.” Kangin said shaking his head.

“I told you, don’t grew attach with him especially he’s a part of our mission… or else you’ll suffer.” Kibum said.

“I know… I couldn’t… I do really love him.” Kangin said.

“Yeah and you two even started to live together. Anyways, you should really talk to him. If he loves you, he will trust you no matter what.” Kibum coax him and leave to discuss somewhere with Siwon. Kangin gathered all his courage and approach him. He sat beside him.

“Teukkie-ah?!” Kangin called. Leeteuk slowly look at him, a tear was trailing down from his eyes.

“Youngwoon-ah, what’s going on?!” Leeteuk manage to ask. Kangin brought Leeteuk into his arms and then rub soothing circles on his back.

“Sssh… everything will be fine… Let’s go…” Kangin said and brought the sobbing Leeteuk to the sea shore.

“Jungsoo ah, I’ll tell you everything. No more pretences and secrets. Always remember that I love you.” Kangin said hugging Leeteuk and kissed his forehead.

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They have been staying in the sand. Leeteuk was all in ears as he listens to Kangin in explanation of everything. He learned about Eunhyuk’s past, his involvement to Donghae, the Corvus and about everything.

“What about us Youngwoon-ah? Is everything between us is true at all?” Leeteuk said not looking at Kangin but to the horizons of the sea. Kangin looked at Leeteuk, surprise he asked that but at the same time with guilt.

“Those 3 words you’d always say, are they even true? Are they even from you…?” Leeteuk paused then continued, “… or just your way on getting close to me so you could fulfil your mission?” Leeteuk asked. Sarcasm is starting to build up in his words. Kangin felt hurt, he felt those words piercing his heart. He looks at the horizon same as Leeteuk, trying to hide the tears that threatens to flow down. He already expected that this day would come, that those words would come out from him. He just hopes they’ll be able to overcome this.

“Honestly, I don’t know if I trust you anymore.” Leeteuk started after the silence that Kangin give as an answer. Once again, he found his eyes looking at Leeteuk with guilt and sadness. He hoped this wouldn’t change anything. He love Leeteuk dearly and he don’t want to lose him but if Leeteuk decided to let go of everything, everything they been through, then he’ll respect him because he trust him of making the right decision between them.

“Teukkie-ah.. listen…” Kangin said in hoarse voice, breaking his own silence. Leeteuk looked up to him, pressing his fingers to Kangin’s lip, hushing the latter.

“No, you listen Youngwoon… I’m confused about everything. Everything around us is not normal. Yes, I’m afraid. I’m afraid for Donghae, for Eunhyuk, for everyone… especially you… But I don’t think…” Leeteuk aids breathing in first. Kangin’s heart is hurting. He knew everything will end soon. He close his eyes, ready to hear those painful words but then he felt different once Leeteuk cupped his cheeks, closing the gap between them. His eyes greeting him.

He showed his smile, his dimple showing, “Bet I don’t think I need to be afraid anymore…” He paused and pecked on those trembling lips and then continued, “Because I have you. I trust you with all my heart because I love , Youngwoon ah.”

Kangin lock Leeteuk at his arms, never so happy before. He is happy for to have a lover like him. He’s perfect...

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“How’s our Eunhyuk doing?” An age man asked.

“He is fine. He is responding to the experiment with accuracy.” A woman said.

“Good, I need him to be ready when the time comes.” The man replied. He was walking around the bed where a man with lots of machine connected to it, breathing soundly.

“What do you plan on doing to him, Lee Sooman-nim?” The woman asked.

“I’m reserving him for an important mission.” The man stopped, placing his hand on the lying man’s hand.

“He is the only one who can know. Now that you remove his memories, I know I can trust him now.” The man said. He then walked away. He then stopped and continued, “Keep his body frozen for awhile, and I’ll tell you when he needed to be released. Check his vital signs and reserved him for our greatest cause.” The man said and next thing was heard was a close door.

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EUNHYUK’S POV

I was woken up by another dream. I know it was from my memories since if it’s just a dream... a corvus never dreams. When they sleep, everything is entirely black. That girl, is she Hyori noona that I remember? And then, Lee Sooman? Is he the guy that took me in and made me who I am now? It’s already night. Everything seems to be coming back now. I went to the balcony, connected to the room we were staying at. The moon is shining so brightly. Ah, so relaxing.

“So you’re finally awake?” Someone whispered to my ears as arms wrapped around my waist. I couldn’t care less for I know who it is.

“Yeah, how’s Leeteuk hyung? Is he out of shock already?” I asked. I have seen Leeteuk hyung’s reaction when we were heading back here. I know he’ll react like that, I reacted like that too. I just hope I didn’t entirely freak him out.

“He’s fine. I had a talked to him and he seems to be coping with our situation now.” Donghae said kissing my cheeks. I lean back my head to him, relaxing myself. Him beside me is something I always look forward.

“What you thinking? How’s your wound?” He asked me. I smiled at his concerned nature. His caring that made me fall in love with him all over again.

“I’m just fine, Hae. I don’t feel any pain at all.” I assured him and face him. Still, his arms were around him. I look at him, cupping his face and close our gap together. Ah, this addictive kiss. I am blessed. I don’t mind being a Corvus, to die for him and to live again to protect him. It’s like my existence was destined to be with him and that it I am thankful the most.

Our lips met, kissing tenderly. I felt his tongue licking my lower lip, asking access for him to explore my mouth and I did. I felt his tongue exploring every inch of my mouth, playing with my own tongue. Are we going to do it again? I’m excited.

Knock! Knock! Knock!

We abruptly stopped and let go of each other as we stared at the door. There was Leeteuk hyung, peeking at the door.

“Uhm, did I interrupt something?” He smiled at us. Donghae sighed and shook his head.

“Ani… waeyo hyung?” Donghae asked.

“Dinner’s ready.. and uhm…” He paused and then continued, “Can I talk to Hyukjae alone?”

Did he just call me Hyukjae? I guess Leeteuk hyung knows everything now. I’m afraid, he might lost his trust to me too. And he might not teach me anymore. How can I tell him when Hae and I do it? I’m still innocent right?

I look at Donghae who is looking at us back and forth between me and Leeteuk hyung. I smiled at him and he nodded.

“I’ll wait for you in the dining table.” He said and then walked pass by Leeteuk hyung and then stopped, “And don’t teach Hyukkie to be on top hyung? Not gonna happen!!!” He said before leaving us completely. Ayie? Why wouldn’t Donghae want me to try? But I still think it’s inappropriate so it’s okay. I walked in and sit at the bed. Leeteuk hyung sat beside me and then held on my hand. I looked at him with the reassurance that everything will be alright.

“Hyukjae-ah, gomawo…” He breathed out.

“Aniyo… it’s nothing hyung.” I said. I hope him thanking me is a sign he trust me.

“Not just because you saved my life... But also trusting Donghae to us…” He smiled, “You gave him to us because you trust us that we’ll take care of him and I’m glad you really did. Having a dongsaeng like him is a blessing for me…” He continued, “A pain in the ass… but sweet...”

“Hyung…” I couldn’t speak. I’m really happy. I could remember the times when I will watch Leeteuk hyung and his father before, spying on them. I really made a right choice in trusting Donghae to them.

“You may be different now… Hyukjae-ah, you may be a Corvus… but I do trust you… I trust Donghae to you as you trusted us before. I’m really thankful to meet a great guy like you, Hyukjae.” Leeteuk hyung said. There’s something wet in my eyes and I know tears are starting to pour down. Leeteuk hyung hugged me, he too is sobbing softly. I hugged him back. I never regretted anything, especially trusting Donghae to them before I died.

“Hyung…” I called as we let go. He replied, “Yeah?”

“Please call me Uyu.. I’m not use in you calling me Hyukjae.” I requested. After all, he is the one who gave me that name and I’m thankful.

“Haha, of course Uyunnie…” He said, patting my head. Some things will never change right?

“Let’s go… others are waiting for us for dinner.” He said. We stood up and went to the door but then he stopped, “Are you sure you are still innocent and don’t know those kind of things?” He asked me. Bwoh? I felt my cheeks burning. How could he just ask something like? I’m… I’m still new you know.

“Hyung~” I whined but he just give his infamous high-pitch laugh. We went out of our room and to the dining table where the others are waiting.

“What did the two of you talked about?” That’s the first question Donghae asked me and then eyed Leeteuk hyung, “Did you teach him something ridiculous, hyung?” He puffed his cheeks. Ah. Kyeopta.

“Hush down Hae, I just taught him to kick your butt when it’s necessarily.” Leeteuk hyung said, making me to giggle. He sat beside Kangin hyung and when I saw him staring at me, it was different. I know I finally gain his trust and I’m happy.

“Yah! Hyung! How could you teach something like that to Hyukkie?” Donghae pouted and then turned on me, “You wouldn’t kick my butt right Hyukkie?” He said, his eyes with full of hope. Someone then cleared his throat, getting our attention. It was Siwon and beside him was a girl in teen.

“Oh, Sulli ah~” Kangin hyung called. Her name is Sulli? Kyeopta! But something is familiar with her.

“Oh, we have many guest, Youngwoon oppa. Annyeong haseyo, I’m Sulli. I’m Siwon oppa’s sister.” The girl said and bowed.

“Oh, you must be Hyukjae oppa. Annyeong haseyo, I’m Haejin. I’ll be your friend!”

“Hyukkie? Are you okay?” I saw Donghae’s hand waving in front of me. I must be dreaming again.

“Ah, neh… just thinking.” I said. Why does she make me remember so much of Haejin? I must be tired.

“Then let’s eat!!!”

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DONGHAE’S POV

“Hyukkie?” I called in as I open the room that was given for us while we are staying here. Yeap, he was there standing in the balcony. Since he doesn’t eat, he just left and I was worried sick. I thought he went to somewhere again.

“How‘s the food?” He asked. Eh? Does he miss eating food?

“Uhm, just fine?” I said as I approached him, wrapping him again within my arms.

“Ooh, I wonder how the food tastes now.” He said. My poor monkey, can’t even eat.

“Well, it’s not that different from before I guess.” I coax him.

“But your fishy taste better.” Ayie? Did he just say those words? I look at him and his cheeks were red, the light of the moon lighting his scarlet cheeks.

“Our monkey is thinking of doing it now?” I teased, nibbling in his ears.

“Hae~” Eunhyuk called half- moaning.

“Not now Hae…” He said pouting as he faced me, placing his palms in chest. Ayie? Our Monkey is hesitating now?

“Hae, what is engaged?” He asked. huh? Where did he learn it? Did Leeteuk hyung teach him something? Not that I’m against him but sometimes what hyung is teaching to Uyu is becoming out of hand, especially teaching Uyu to be on top. That won’t happen. It’s a big NO!

“I heard Rose is engage with the bad guy. Is it a bad thing?” Oh, Titanic again? He learned so much from Titanic eh.

“Well, engagement or being engage is process where… uhm…” I don’t even know how to explain this, “ Uhm… when a two person promise each other that they’ll be married to each other.” I said. Did I even explain it properly?

“What is marriage then?” He asked, looking at me. Aish. How to explain it. I scratch my head. I don’t really know how to explain this.

“Uhm… that’s when two people give each other their selves and promise they’ll only give it only to their selves.” I said. Ah, kinda hard explaining but enjoy explaining it to Hyukkie, checking if my brain still works.

“Like us?” He jerked his head side. I raised any eyebrow thinking. He then continued, “Like when you take monkey and I take your fishy?” He asked. Gah! Uyu is so cute. But then, hmm. Maybe we should get married but how? Oh?! I snapped my fingers.

“Huh?”

“Then we should get married now?” I asked.

“Really? Let’s go!” He said clapping his fingers. Hyukkie, I so can take you now with your cuteness. Anyways, where did I put that rings? Well, I’ve been keeping those rings for quite sometimes now. I just didn’t give it yet to Eunhyuk. Good thing it was in my pocket when we left my pad. I went back where Eunhyuk is and was waiting eagerly there.

“Here, take this. You wear it to my finger and repeat these words with me, Hyukkie, arasso?” I instructed him. I’m excited. I never imagine we’ll do something like this. When everything is over, I’ll surely marry him officially no matter what. Yeah, Eunhyuk is only mine.

“Repeat after me, I then your name…” I started, he then followed,” I then your name…” Ooops?

“Ani… after I, you’ll say you’re name arasso~” I explained and he nodded attentively. Wah, my Uyu. I’m really getting married. Well, not officially married but then. Aish!

“I… and then your name..” I started and he followed.

“ I, Lee Hyukjae…”

Great! “Take this ring…” I started again, and he once again followed.

”Take this ring…”

“As a sign of my love… to love you Lee Donghae, to stay by your side forever… for better or worse, for richer or poorer, till-“

He repeated after me but then paused, “Wait, I’m already dead right?” Oh right? Uhm..

“Forever more?” I said and he nodded.

“Forevermore.” He smiled with his gummy smile. I then took the other ring and slowly put it in his ring finger.

“I, Lee Donghae, take this, as a sign of my love… to love you Lee Hyukjae, to stay by your side forever… for better or worse, for richer or poorer, till- I mean forever more.” I smiled. I brought my lips and captured his luscious lips.

“I pronounce us, the moon as our witness, to be husband and – uhm lovers…” I said. He just smiled with his gummy smile.

“Ooh.. so that’s how marriage is?” He asked.

“Yeap… my love…” I said kissing his lips once more and hugging him tight.

“What do we do after marriage?” He asked. Kyah? Is he asking me?

“Continuing what we suppose to do.” I said nibbling his lips. I lifted him up and his legs automatically wrap in my waist. Men, my fishy is widely awake now.



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“You will kill him when the time is right Eunhyuk!”

Who’s the one saying it? Who are you?

“When the time is right. You have to kill him! That is your purpose now!”

That voice, it’s familiar. Who is he?

“When you wake up, you have to kill him and that’s an order!”

Who are you?! Please stop! I don’t want to kill anyone. Jebal!

“Or if you don’t... someone else surely will.”

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EUNHYUK'S POV

I wake up. My breathing is heavy. My face is full of sweat. Who is that guy in my dream? Why is he telling me to kill someone? Is Kangin hyung right that I shouldn’t be trusted? Am I really brought up to life for a selfish cause? Andwae!

I look at my side and thankfully my Fishy wasn’t awoken up by my noise. I need some fresh air. I glance at the clock and it was 1 am already, probably everyone is sleeping.

Careful not to make a sound, I went out of our room. I saw a light from the kitchen, guess not everyone is sleep after all. I don’t really want to meddle with their business until...

“I completely trust Eunhyuk… but we can’t be too sure…” Definitely it was Kangin hyung’s voice.

“Why hyung? Having Eunhyuk will increase our chances in destroying the Pluto Company.” Now, it’s Kibum talking.

“Yeah, we got Donghae now so definitely we have bigger chances..” Siwon? What are they talking now? I moved closer to the kitchen, hearing the conversation. I’ve seen this before in a movie, it isn’t bad to mind their business right?

“Yeah we have higher chances but then.. Eunhyuk… he’s…” Kangin hyung can’t continue. What is he trying to say? What am I?

“He can be the cause of our failure…” Their failure? Am I really a threat? Am I…

“As long as he is with us, Donghae, us… everyone will be in danger…” Andwae? Is it because of me?

“Remember, they are still looking for him and they don’t know yet Donghae’s whereabouts…” Kangin hyung paused and then continued, “And surely Donghae will be in danger once they knew everything.”

Donghae will be in trouble because of me? Donghae… he’ll be in danger because of me? I can’t endanger the one I love. Everyone, those who I’ve met. I can’t just endanger them. But how?

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I felt my cheeks drench with tears. I must stop crying. Everything will be alright right? Everything will end right? Donghae, my sweet Donghae. Would you remember me when I leave you? Would you still love me when I leave? We promised ourselves we’ll love each other forever more right? We are married right?

I felt my heart aching. Do I even have a heart? Leeteuk hyung said everyone has a heart, that’s why everyone falls in love. Does that include dead people too?

I look at his sleeping face, cupping it. I hope he is having a sweet dream now. I know I said it many times before and I’ll never get tired of saying it. I never regretted anything, dying for you, turning to a Corvus to protect you. Having this second life to be with you and marrying you. None of it made me regret ever meeting you. I love you, Lee Donghae. No matter what happens, I’ll always love you. You’ll love me too right? Even I may not be beside you anymore? Neh, you’ll love me right?

Remember those words you said to me, that every heartbeat of yours is for me right? Now, every breathe I made. I can’t say heartbeat right? I am dead after all and I don’t have heartbeat while sleeping. All I could offer you is my breath. After all, breathe is a sign of living too.

All the breath I heaved, all the air that take in and out, it would be for you. As I sign that I love you and I will live for you. For now, just trust me. When everything is over. I’ll be back and be with you. Forever.

I placed my lips in his forehead and then kissed the tip of his nose and finally leaving the final kiss in his red lips. A tear rolled down from my eyes. My last tear that I can give for tonight I must be strong. Everyone will be over soon. I am hurt ironically even if I don’t feel pain. I have to do this. Just to make you safe. Just to make sure everyone is safe.

I look at the ring in my left hand, the symbol of your love. The symbol of our love, I am yours and you are mine. Please wait for me. For now this is goodbye. Trust me, my Donghae.


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DONGHAE’S POV

“Hyukkie!” I shouted. I don’t know why but I have a bad feeling. I look at my side and Eunhyuk wasn’t beside me.

“Hyukkie?” Andwae! What happened? My breathing became heavy. I felt complete uneasiness. I look at the door leading the balcony, it was open but I remember I locked it before we slept. I look at the side table. There was a note. My tears started to pouring down, why?! WHY?!

Andwae! Andwae! I’m just dreaming right? Hyukkie? You didn’t… You promised me right? Didn’t you say you’ll stay by my side forever?

HYUKKIE!!!!!!!!

Donghae,

Trust me… I love you~

[NC-17] BREATHE INTO ME (10/??)

Décimo Tumba:
Isolation

DONGHAE’S POV

“Hae...”

I abruptly stopped on what I’m currently doing. Panting to gain back my normal breathing, I looked back to see Leeteuk hyung with his ever worried face.

“Give yourself a break, will ya?!” He said, bringing a towel around my neck, “Don’t overworked yourself.”

I bit my lower lip just to prevent myself from crying again, remembering the main reason why the hell I’ve been straining myself on learning to be great in defence.

Since Hyukjae fled 2 weeks ago, I fell into so many thoughts, trying to figure out why he left despite the promise we made that we should never, ever part.

I know it’s ridiculous that he just have to leave after we practically sworn to each other. But no matter how I think about it, no matter how I should be angry about him leaving... I JUST CAN’T. Especially that he asked for me to trust him.

I know that even Eunhyuk with that innocent and adorable personality can be that stubborn also and considering his past, there is this higher possibility that he would rather want to suffer alone. For my sake.

I can feel... I really can feel that he left for my sake. That idiot!!! Why can’t he trust me?! I’m freaking old now to defend myself. Arggh!

Either ways, he already left and there’s no way I can bring him back. With the promise we made, I’ll hold on to that. I’ll wait for him. When he get’s back, I’ll be damn sure I can defend myself to let him know that there is no other reason for him to leave. I won’t make him worry again.

I was too weak that he has to head-bat, stained his pure hands with blood just to protect me. I won’t let that happen again. Didn't I said to myself that I"ll protect him?

Since he ask for my trust, I’ll trust him that he’ll be back to me and that’s the time I won’t let him get away from me again. He should stay by my side forever like he promised me.

“I’m fine, hyung.” I smiled to hyung.

I heard him sigh really hardly, “Hae... Uyu will be fine.” He said.

“I was never worried about whether he’ll be fine or not. He is Hyukjae after all. But will he be bac-”

“He’ll be back. That’s for sure.” Leeteuk hyung interrupted and I guess putting my worries on his shoulder now would just make it more painful for me... ignorance is blessed after all.

I just have to work more... practice more... train more and by the time he’ll get back, I’ll be the one protecting him. That’s my main objective. But I just hope so that I can survive these times that he isn’t around. My Uyu... my Eunhyuk... you Hyukjae... Monkey, you better be safe or I swear if you get back, I’ll fuck you ‘til you can even make a step away from me.

“Urggghhh!”

“Here, blow your nose, you kiddo.” Leeteuk hyung smiled, offering a towel and encouraging me to blow my nose since I had cried again before I even realized it. What a useless shithead I am.

I am weak but I’m holding on. Thanks to Kangin’s word.


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<NORMAL POV>

Back on Seoul.

Heechul, as usual, had just got out from the elevator of the building where his bachelor’s pad is. He just got back from buying his cat’s food as usual after his long day at the photo shoot as a photographer his new lonely life had adopted.

As he walked over the corridor his pad was, he noticed two men standing at the doorway next door to his.

He lowered his dark shades as he scanned them. They were buzzing the doorbell at that certain unit and he wanted to walk back to somewhere he would be unnoticed of. He doesn’t wanna interact with the likes of them.

However, before he could do so, the taller man had called for him, “Excuse me,” he started.

Heechul who got the curiosity took over the sense of his cautions, had raised his head, “Yes?!”

“Have you see Donghae hyung, the occupant next door?! I’m his co-worker. My name is Cho Kyuhyun.” The taller guy said.

Heechul stared at that guy then to the door where his sweet neighbourhood had lived his city life too for quite a few good years. He knows Donghae and Hyukjae weren’t around already. Something happened that certain night that drove the two away into safety. Something he predicted to happen soon and it did. But it was way too soon.

His eyes then find an interesting guy behind the taller man. The guy was silent, not looking at his way and even smaller than the two of the others. He was small but has well-defined tight muscles but nevertheless, he still looks so stunningly pretty. Femininely pretty. Just enough to acknowledge that he is indeed someone as he is now. And Heechul knows what exactly.

“Hyung...?!” This Kyuhyun guy woke him up in a reverie.

He straightened his back as he looked away from the other blonde haired guy, he said, “I don’t know where he went. They just left.” He didn’t lie. He doesn’t really know or whether he would care at all. He already cut the ties with the things that would remind him of his horrible past and Donghae and Hyukjae were part of it! It’s a pity but he already gone tired of being in pain and distress. He swore not to pry.

“To a vacation?!” Kyuhyun asked, insisting to know and Heechul knows that the younger one just wanted to know because he was worried. Pity. He could have helped if this is just a trivial thing and nothing connected to his past. He could have helped.

“I don’t know.” Instead, he said again.

“Hyung... I need to know.” Kyuhyun had grab on Heechul’s wrist and the latter had to fight off his instinct of his reflexes not to throw that guy away.

“I don’t really know. Excuse me, I have a cat to feed.” He said his excuse, shifted his hands away from the grasp then went into his pad before that young man would freaking ask him again.

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Later that night, as usual, if the pain of past would struck him again, he would just drown himself into drinking alcohol all over again to at least pushed those memories somewhere on his brain that it’ll be out of reach for a while.

Suddenly, as alarmed as he was, he stood up when the door of his pad opened and gentle footsteps were heard.

Sooner, that same feminine pretty face he saw earlier, showed up in front of him.

Heechul gulped, “What are you doing here?! Are you gonna show me up too?!” He asked sarcastically even he knows that the intruder intended nothing like that. And it proved when the other male had hugged him so tightly.

“Hyung... Why...why did you leave me...?!” The other asked in his stuttering voice, crying like he only cried after those long, terrifying years.

Heechul fight off his tears. He must not cry. He looked up the ceiling to not let those welled tears to fall and when he succeeded to push those tears back, he cleared his throat to speak. “Sungmin ah, L-let go.”

The said male really did let go. “Hyung... Come back.” He begged.

Heechul stiffened up by the plea. Though, they weren’t in any way blood related, still, their past is related. He was a dongsaeng who cared so much, who smiles in any cute and funny moments despite of what happened, despite their real lives had given them that lead them to death, despite of being brought again to life to do inhumane acts for the sake of those selfish thugs. He would always smile on that and Heechul would always find it lifting his mood up. Somehow he felt guilt in his system of leaving, yet he said, “It’s painful.... Wished I never had... A heart.” He said.

“No...hyung.” Sungmin straightened his back, “You don’t understand. Don’t isolate yourself from the world. You failed to see it. Come back and you’ll know-”

“Know what?! The Slavery of that inhuman organization?! What’s good with that?!!! What’s good in what they’re doing to you, Minnie ah?! Are you happy to be brought to life again just to be forced to do anything... To do more fighting...?! To kill somebody, innocent or not?! Those bastards!! You’re smarter than that!”

Sungmin polled his eyes with tears again. He breathes out, “Everyone thought you’re dead.” He said.

Heechul sat down, “I wished I am. Now, sungmin ah. I don’t fucking want to see you again. I tried to forget everything but you just showed up and you just brought all those bad memories back again. It’s killing me, Minnie...” He took another sip of his wine and stared blankly.

“Hyung-”

“Damn it! Go away.” Heechul stood up to push Sungmin away who reacted nothing else but cried. He missed this certain hyung so much that when he heard he was ‘killed’, he practically felt all the dark clouds had found its place around him,-and never seem to leave- he felt he was alone in this damn life to do anything what he is forced to do. Being a corvus like his hyung is.

“Hyung...l-”

“Fuck, go away.!”

“Hyung... I don’t wanna be alone again... Hyung... If you come back-”

“Back?! How could you beg something like that Sungmin ah?! Are you this stupid?!”

“. . . . . . .”

Heechul teared, lifting the wine bottle only to throw it on the floor. “Shit! Sungmin ah, we were experimented. Being toyed and forced to do cruel things.”

“I know... But-”

“Urrggh! Fine! Try being experimented and get pregnant! Then have your little kid taken away knowing he gets experimented as well and if they fail, he’ll be slaughtered to death. Feel that freaking painful life! Falling in love, have a kid to be killed for such stupid failure, and what did that freaking stupid one I loved do?! Practically, nothing!!! NOTHING! That freaking CHINESE MAN, just fucking did nothing and let our kid get taken away and get killed! That man is useless! That man is worse than those other people! He only used me as his freaking experiment! That asshole!”

“Hyung... It’s not-”

“Leave me... Fuck! Leave me! I don’t want to do anything concerning about Corvus. I don’t care if you tell them that their Heenim is alive! Just leave now!”

Sungmin back a step away. He is practically crying now not because he’s scared of his hyung nor he was scared to go back alone being a bloody Corvus. Somehow, he feels Heechul’s anguish. He feels his burden and wanting to leave that part of the world that would remind him of things.

He bowed to his hyung, “I won’t show you up. Take care, hyung.” With that, he left and found his master still standing near the elevator, waiting for him with furrowed brows gazed on him when he saw he has his eyes red. However, much to Sungmin’s relief, his master didn’t ask. As if the master would care to ask anyways, as he thought.

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When every voice faded in that certain chamber, Hyukjae decided to get out of the closet where he hid himself for the moment. He arched his back freely and even though the door of that certain chamber opened again, it didn’t bother him even a bit. Instead he raised his head to greet a marvellous lady in front of him with a smile then added, “I thought they’re not gonna leave.” He whined, referring to those other scientist who visited her chamber.

Lee Hyori chuckled and threw him a carton of milk, “Hyukjae, as much as I want to keep in track of you, you can’t stay here.”

“Donghae is in a safe hand.” Hyukjae pointed out, “Besides, my job is in here.”

Lee Hyori just sighed, “You’ve been hiding in my chamber for a week now and it’s still a misery why you managed to get in Corvus headquarter without getting detected—”

“I’m Eunhyuk.... why wonder more about it?! This is my home 23 years ago.” Hyukjae pointed another fact and Hyori just breathes out not to argue anymore.

Once again, a knock was heard from the door and Hyukjae was supposed to get inside the closet once again to hide but Hyori chuckled, “It’s my assistant. It’s okay. We can trust him.”

Hyukjae just nodded and waited for the assistant to come inside. What he didn’t expect is, the person in front of him is too young to be Hyori’s assistant. At Hyori’s 52 year-old self, the man in front of them is like half of Hyori’s age.

“Annyeonghaseyo, Eunhyuk-shi. Hankyung Imnida.” The man said then bowed.

Eunhyuk just bowed back.

“He was the one keeping your progress for the last half of your freezing period. If there’s something that would go wrong in your body, he should be the one to blame.” Hyori added a joke at the end.

“I seem fine.” Eunhyuk cracked a smile.

“I’m glad.” Hankyung smiled back. “Ryeowook has been released today.” Hankyung directed his words to Hyori.

“Ae...?!” Hyori’s eyes widened. “He’s not ready yet.”

“Who’s Ryeowook?!” Hyukjae asked.

Hyori scratched her scalp really annoyingly, “Geez.... Can’t they wait?!” She bit her lips then looked at Hyukjae, “Ryeowook is the latest Corvus but he wasn’t that ready yet to be released out there.”

Hyukjae nodded again to take note of it. Then he asked, “So, how many Corvus out there?!”

“You... well... few dozens?! Well, few are really close to perfect... there are only four I am close with since they were my favourites.” Hyori said.

“Who are they?!” Hyukjae asked.

“You are the most perfect.” Hankyung said.

“Who else?!” Hyukjae kept asking and Hankyung cleared his throat. Hyukjae wondered why Hankyung fell into difficulty and awkwardness about the question.

Hyori broke the awkwardness of the question. She just asked Hankyung instead, “Have you heard why Ryeowook been released?!”

“Well, they need extra hand to find Donghae. Ryeowook would be the best ‘machine’ to track someone missing.” Hankyung said in annoyance but forgotten that Hyukjae was listening.

“SHIT!” Hyukjae gasped, realizing that his Donghae might be in danger anytime soon. “I need to go back.”

“No... don’t make another rush decision, Hyukkie... Let’s figure this out.” Hyori said, sitting down on her fluffy bed.

The three fell silence for a long time figuring what is the nicest thing to do. They were preoccupied on their own minds. Hyukjae in the other hand was holding his tears remembering how he just left Donghae like that?! Does Donghae hate him now?! Is Donghae safe?! Does he still love him?! Many questions are popping in his head and he just wanted to freak out.

“We need another Corvus that we can trust.” Hankyung mouthed a suggestion after long moment of silence.

Hyori sighed, “Sungmin.”

Hyukjae’s eyes widened. “He is with Donghae’s co-worker. Cho Kyuhyun.”

The other two nodded as they knew it already. Hankyung looked at Hyori, “Even Sungmin is a corvus and has a master. Sungmin still have a good heart. I’m sure he’ll understand.”

“But... he was the one who revealed Donghae’s place that Hyukjae is there.” Hyori disagreed on her own suggestion.

“Who else?!” Hyukjae asked.

“Uhmm, well—”

“Nobody else.” Hankyung interrupted. “We just have to take Sungmin in our side.” Hankyung said.

“DADDY! Is Daddy here?!”

The three people looked at the door where a seven year old adorable kid showed up. Hankyung smiled and closed the door after letting in the kid. “Taemin ah, I told you that you should be sleeping right now.”

Taemin just smiled adorably, “Woah!!!!” He pointed at Hyukjae, “Eunhyuk! A real Eunhyuk, papa!”

Hankyung laughed but whispered, “Don’t tell anybody that Eunhyuk is here, okay?!”

Taemin nodded eagerly, “Yes... it's our secret.” He beamed then smiled to Hyukjae.

Hyukjae looked at Hankyung. “Your kid?!”

“Yes.” Hankyung said.

“Where’s the mother?!” Hyukjae asked.

Hankyung bit his lower lip before sighing out. He managed a smile before saying, “Away.”

“Eunhyuk hyung is really pretty. But my mama is the prettiest. My papa said that mama is the prettiest person on Earth!”

“I see...” Hyukjae just smiled.


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Hankyung drew a smile on his face, playing on the soft brown hair his kid has on as he tried to hauled the kid to dreamland. He agrees, everyone agrees that his son looked like the mother and it only pained him more.

“Chullie... If only you still alive... You could have seen this pretty face of our son.” He whispered out of nowhere.

With that, a fit of cry escaped his mouth and was alarmed if he had woken Taemin up. He sighed when Taemin just flinched to snuggle up more to his dad’s careful fingers.

Right now, Hankyung managed to cry silently in too much regret and stupid-ness he did a long while way back.


FLASHBACK
[MonShie09's note: Series of different scenes of flashback.]

12 YEARS BACK

“Hankyung...”

Hankyung looked away from Eunhyuk’s sleeping figure in a tube where all the cords where connected to keep the figure alive.

He had been a student-scientist of this secret experiment and he only does this because he wanted to be a scientist –his childhood dream-. He just want to do what he likes and Hyori helps and trained him and now, it had been 3 years since he has been working under this lab and it has also been 3 years since he assist Hyori with this one important Corvus, Eunhyuk.

He quite heard lots about this man’s suffering and as to how he became one of the experiment and he feel for it.

“Hankyung ah,” The persistent voice spoke again and it reminded that he has a visitor.

“Waeyo?!” He asked, putting down the folder where Eunhyuk’s files of progress are documented.

But before the old prominent male scientist can explain, Hyori banged the door and said. “Hankyung ah, go to SECTION A! There’s a new man we wanted to operate.” She said and took all the materials she might need, completed with her everyday white suit, she whispered to Hankyung, “He has the highest opportunity to perfection. Let’s do this right together. Let’s make a brother for Eunhyukkie.” She smiled to Hankyung and to the sleeping said male beside the latter.

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As Hankyung had prepared himself for a day or two worth sleepless operation, he asked the nearest scientist, “What’s the cost of his death?!”

“Drugs... Over-dosage of anti- depressant.” He answered.

“I see. How long has he been dead?!”

“Approximately 8 hours.”

Hankyung smiled. “Cause of death and hours of death are perfect. Let’s get this male back to life.” He said and Hyori who supervising the operation managed to smile secretly proudly on her student, Hankyung.

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It’s been a year since the operation on that man had occurred and he was showing different types of responses. He was more than perfect. He was energetic in some point but they couldn’t point a finger exactly on how perfect he is. Unless they’ll release him.

And so they did.

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His real name is Heechul, hence was called Heenim after he became a corvus.

Hankyung always thought that Heechul was very pretty in many and infinite ways. He is just pure beauty. He had always thought so, that’s before Heechul was still at the tube before his grand release.

But Hankyung didn’t expect how that God of a beauty would look like if he opens his eyes with those curious and aloof gazes.

It did give Hankyung a hard time to keep his heart from not beating rapidly. Yet again, he fell. He had fallen in love with the second successful corvus, he himself made.

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It was too magical for Hankyung to realized and accept that he had fallen in love with some same gender, more, to a dead person.

Yet, it never ignored the fact that they got together. As how much Hankyung was in love with Heechul is how exactly the latter had grown affection to his creator. Him, being a corvus is not that hidden to him. Having Hankyung around him as a lover is only a big prize, something he managed to stay and accept that he had return to life with a horrid fate...but Hankyung had always been there for him, so, he thought he’d be worth living again.

So, when he gave himself to the Chinese man, he didn’t regret any of it. Getting impregnated afterwards wasn’t a bit shocking for him. He is considered as an unknown specie right now... A corvus after all. Thus, same reason why the lovers were too happy.

But, it shouldn’t be told. Yes, the three or four including Hyori and even the newest corvus had hidden the fact that Heechul was pregnant. But as a big organization they are in, it didn’t get that long, they have been found out. Resulting to have their kid taken away.

Heechul was so furious, wrecking the whole place, begging to bring his kid back knowing that he’ll be a specimen for another dying experiment. He couldn’t possibly imagine what would the life in store for his son.

Whereas, the father stayed calm, introverted as he is, weeping silently on the lost of their kid. He wanted to do anything and freaking out is not the best way. He’ll work on gaining the organization’s trust back so he himself could take all the experiment his kid could possibly go through. Yes, he is scared for his son, but it was the best he could do for now. At least, he’ll watch for his son’s progress or even take him away to safety.

Nevertheless, Heechul didn’t understand Hankyung’s way of thinking. He wants his baby back right that very moment. He cried and cried until he had reached his ugliest state he had never seen in his lifetime. But none of it he cared. He is desperate to have his son back, even his stupid husband won’t cooperate to it.

He worked on his own, he tried to save his own son, alone. Well, he was until Sungmin, the corvus after him had finally stand up and helped him despite the fact that he gets punished afterwards.

He thought he could save him or was he too stupid to think he can outwit all those up the organization?! NO! It didn’t. He hadn’t had a chance to get his son out and also resulted of him getting shot several times because there are no other way people could stop him. He has mother’s wife after all.

Sungmin was also injured but he had been spared. Heechul had been quite deeply injured to the point that despite of being a painless corvus, he felt all the pain. He hated it.

More to that, before he had made himself clear to the enemies, he overheard some men told that the experiment on one Corvus kid is a failure and so was slaughtered to death. That would only mean one thing. It was his baby, Taemin.

With that, Heechul fled. Somewhere off that he would no longer get to see anything that would freshen up all the memories of his lost. The lost of his son and the betrayal of the man he loves. Damn it all! He hates himself.

Never did he realized, Hankyung who has a heart of a father would never in the right mind would let his baby to get slaughtered to death. He did all he can, until to the end of his wits, to take every experiment to be successful but he himself didn’t realized that his wife is getting impatient. The next thing he knew, Heechul was killed for barging in to the lab. At least, that’s what he had been told.

It was like the feeling of having heaven to pact with hell just to punish the likes of him. He regretted of not having to act up into something Heechul would understand, concerning how the latter was always impatient. He should have explained his plans. He should have never taken his eyes away from his late lovely wife. Damn it all.


END of FLASHBACK


Once again, Hankyung had sobbed after remembering his wife on how he must have died with his resentment on Hankyung. He had died again with hatred yo life and Hankyung couldn’t help but to hate himself to be responsible of letting Heechul lived a second life and experienced sorrowful lifetime once again. Again. He felt so stupid and hateful.

“Daddy...”

Hankyung bowed down and was grateful that the room where dim lighted, allowing clear tears invisible on those pure eyes of his son. “Yeah, baby?!”

Taemin smiled lightly, “Daddy should sleep too.” He said.

Hankyung just nod, and felt his heart aching with every move of his son that reminds him of the mother. Yet again, he managed to smile back as he patted the kid back to sleep.

As he was outside the room, he whispered, “Chul ah, I may not know who holds you now... Whether the heaven or hell... I don’t know... But whenever you are, I missed you. Do you hate me still?! I still love you.” He voiced out, making him cry in heartache and emptiness again. If he didn’t die, he must be the happiest man right now... With their Taemin.

Suddenly, he heard batches of quickening footsteps. He hid himself behing the door of an empty stockroom. He then overheard something. “Eunhyuk was here.”

Hankyung’s eyes widened in shock as he leaned more closer. How could these men know about it?! Shit! Eunhyuk is no longer safe here, he needs to tell him before he’ll get captured and use for evil purposes again.

Eunhyuk has to be told. As soon as possible.



Chapter by: MonShie09
Edited by: EuNic monkEy

Just to help you guys:
For Corvus
Name > Age at Death > Being a 'Corvus' > Current Age
Hyukjae>23>23>46
Heechul>25>12>38
Sungmin>23>10>33
Ryeowook>22>3>25
Leeteuk>

Name> Age Before>Current Age
Hankyung>19>31
Hyori>28>52

[NC-17] BREATHE INTO ME (11/??)

Undécimo Tumba:
I’m Sorry


Silence took all the time while they are journeying back home. No one dared to even utter a word from the very start the engine of the car they are using was on. But Sungmin was shocked that his master, the heartless and brat master of his, volunteered to drive. But he couldn’t care for there are things more important now that clouded his mind.

Kyuhyun just concentrated on the road but taking quick glances to his so-called houseboy once in a while. Truthfully, he’s really worried why Sungmin is acting like this. He wanted to ask but his ego is stopping him. The red of the traffic light lit up, halting their silent journey. He took that chance to fully look at Sungmin. Even how many times he denied it to himself, he hated seeing him like that. To see his swollen eyes staring blankly at the horizons of their surroundings, it broke his heart for unknown reason he felt. Sungmin may had act cold towards anyone but his eyes never fails to show the warmness of his heart and that made Kyuhyun looked unto his servant differently. He felt more hurt when he saw a tear rolled down from the corner of Sungmin’s once alive eyes. His trembling hand slowly made its way to wipe those tears away but it was quickly diverted back to the wheels instead as the green light lightened their car, telling them to make a move now. He cursed to himself, “Why couldn’t I just… Aish!”

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Flashback (13 years ago, 20 years old Sungmin)

Sungmin stared at the pictures of the two most important people in his life who just lost their lives a day ago. He knelt in front of there as he comforted the weeping woman within his arms. Even if his heart is shattered to pieces, he couldn’t bring his eyes to tear up. Maybe his tears had run out already.

There were few people wearing black and had said their condolences, but Sungmin wouldn’t care for they weren’t there when their parents needed them the most.

He looked back again to the woman secured in his arms, “All we have now is each other noona… We can do these together.” He tried to coax her.

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They strived so hard to live like before when their parents were still alive. His noona worked hard with few jobs just to sustain their lives and even pay for their debts that their parents had left. Sungmin, on the other hand, works hard to finish his studies and secretly works to help his hard working sister.

But life is cruel when they took everything they had left. Those selfish rich people who brought them down and down.

For Sungmin, they had a perfect life before. His father was a simple farmer while his mother is a housewife taking care of them. They weren’t the poorest but they weren’t rich at all. Their life is just stable. But then, everything started when they were fighting for the lot where his father grows fresh vegetables. They wanted to renovate it into a hotel in a country-side but his father greatly disagreed for he cherished that land. That started the threats in their lives and bankruptcy in their farming business. Still, they worked hard just to maintain what was theirs. They needed a lot of money to move on that they loaned a lot and borrowed money to their so-called friends but then, it only left them to tragedy they are now experiencing.

Even if it was like that, Sungmin never hated his parents. It wasn’t their fault. It was them, those heartless appalling rich guys. It was their entire fault and Sungmin hated them. For him, they are worst than any beast that existed in this cruel world.

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He had hoped when he was finally able to graduate. He was holding a diploma in his hand as he happily walked home. How he wished his parents are still alive, able to see him finishing the course they dreamed for him. But it brought him another shock in his life.

He was smiling from ears to ears as he climbed the stairs of the room they were able to rent from a kind old couple. His heart was at ease until he turns the knob and swung the door open. He had expected to see his noona, trying to rest from a day work but instead, she was tied up in bed, her mouth was stuffed with cloth. Her clothes were torn off almost revealing her sensitive parts and above her struggling figure was a man they thought they can trust.

“Yah! What are you doing to noona?”He quickly stormed into him and even punched the guy away.

“Sungmin-ah, come on. I'm just being kind. Tch. I'm helping her to earn more money. Don’t you want more money?” The guy said wiping the blood at the corner of his lips. He was in the influence of alcohol judging from how he smelled.

“Come on… I promise I’ll give good amount of money.” The jerk said.

Thug!

Sungmin lost it then, his fist come flying and landed to the face of the only family friend they had that became rich after he won a lottery. He covered her sister with a blanket and undid the ties in her hand. He hugged her trembling sister as the police took the criminal away.


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They did everything to have justice but their so-called friend was now too powerful that his money solved the case and left his sister in a state of shock. Sungmin was disgusted to the rich for they get easily off from the sins they have made. And now, his sister couldn’t even escape the trance of fear...

He worked hard to sustain both of them and even asked help from the doctors to help her sister to move on but they refused for they can’t pay enough.

He still didn’t lose hope and tried to cheer up his noona but the shock was too strong that she stayed emotionless and at night, she would scream in her dreams as she remembers that shocking night. It was a heart break for Sungmin to see the only family he got left in a state like this. How he wish he was rich and maybe he was able to hold revenge not just for his sister but for his whole family.

But once again, everything was taken from him when he saw his noona, hanging with a lifeless body in their kitchen.

“NOOOOOOONA!” He screamed in agony and despair.

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It was raining that dark night. Thunders were roaring and lightning stroked freely above the sky. He didn’t care as he just headed forward. His life was in melancholy and it was never meant to be continued anymore. Why must he live when everyone he loved already left him, when the world already betrayed him. He blankly stared at the horizons of the fuming sea below the storm. The wave collided angrily against the rocks of the cliff he was standing at. A tear plunged down from his face hidden in the heavy rain.

“I’m sorry…” were his last words that were heard as he took one more step to the death he looks forward to.


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His eyes were blurry. It tried to adjust to the blinding light that welcomed his eyes. He saw a woman, smiling to him.

“Ji-min… noona?” He began to mumble. He had hoped that all that had happen was just a nightmare, just a dreadful dream. But to his dismay, it was he feared it to be.

“Welcome back to life, Sungmin-sshi.” A woman with a gentle smile said. He then landed his gaze to another being standing there with another gentle smile.

“Where am I?” He asked. No emotions came pouring from his face.

“You’re in a hidden lab somewhere in Seoul.” The woman said.

“Why did you save me?... You should have left me dead. Just kill me… I don’t want to live anymore.” Sungmin looked away.

“I can’t kill you Sungmin-sshi. I brought you back to life and killing you isn’t possible anymore. The woman said fixing her things. Sungmin was now clueless. What is the woman trying to say? It seems she notices his furrowed expression which leads her to utter those words that shock Sungmin’s senses, “You are already dead Sungmin but you were brought to life by science. Now you are not just a normal person but an advanced being.”

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Sungmin couldn’t accept those facts he learned nevertheless he was trained along Heechul, a hyung who was same as he. As Corvus as they prefer, an unknown specie created by science and brought for selfish deeds of the people Sungmin hated the most.

He trained under them to master the skills he got after being a corvus. He hated the fact he was brought to life once again just to do sinful acts but as they say, ‘Everything has a purpose’.

On the other hand, he never felt alone in his so-called second life. Lee Hyori, Hankyung, Heechul, and the sleeping Eunhyuk became his family. He felt delight and satisfaction that even if he has to kill someone, innocent or not, as long as he came back and see them and be with them, he is okay with it. You can call him selfish but he doesn’t want to be alone anymore. He doesn’t want to experience again the loneliness of losing a family.


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He was standing there when there were tears of joy streaming down in Heechul’s face. Hankyung’s smile was ear to ear as he continuously pecked to Heechul in every inch of his beautiful face. Hyori was there, standing with tears on her face. She didn’t know that in the heartless process of being a corvus , there can be something wonderful that can happen. But there was pain she tried to hide. Sungmin walked to his so-called mother and hold her shoulder.

“Are you okay, ahjumma?” Sungmin did his aegyo. The only thing he does to those who are close to him. Hyori chuckled and lightly punch his shoulder.

“Don’t call me ahjumma even with your aegyo” She said wiping her tears.

“Then don’t cry noona~” He did his aegyo again. Hyori just nodded, “I just missed my daughter. I wonder how is she now?” He whimpered.

“I know Shindong hyung would take care of her.” Sungmin comforted her. They swore never to tell anyone.

He even works twice just to cover up for Heechul when they are doing missions but there are no secrets that were kept hidden.


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He was by his side when Heechul wrecked anything he sees, releasing every inch of his resentment. Heechul kneeled down, tears wouldn’t stop. His once beautiful face tainted with sorrow and agony.

“Sungmin-ah. How could he just let it happen? How could he? His baby, our baby.. Doesn’t he want him? How could he… I thought…” Heechul bawled harder. He was losing patience and all his husband could do is still work to that heartless company. Heechul abruptly stand up and walked which Sungmin quickly followed with words “Hyung, where are you going?”

“I’m taking back my son!” Heechul grunted, still stubbornly walked to his destination.

“Hyung, you can’t! It’s dangerous!” Sungmin warned.

“I don’t care. I'm going with or without your help.” Heechul refused to be held back. Sungmin sighed in defeat. He knows to what pain he is going through. Losing someone you love and felt being betrayed by those you thought who were your companions until the end isn’t new to Sungmin. Now, he doesn’t care anymore. All he cares is to have companion and never be alone again.


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Bang! Bang! Bang!

There were dozens of gunshots that were heard from where he is kneeling in pain, when he was too weak to stand anymore. He thought he was buying sometime, but he was useless as it may seem.

“Argh!”

“Heechul hyung!” Sungmin screamed in agony, hoping there would be a response from the next room where his hyung fled into, still trying so hard to recover what he lost. But there was no response, only echoes of his voice.

“Andwae!” He tried to stand but was only knock down when someone hit the back of his head.


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He was alone in a dark room. He was covered with bruises and cuts but never had he felt pain. He was dead after all. The door of the said room opened and he had hope that a certain noona will show up but instead it was a man he knew so well.

“Don’t expect for Hyori to come pick you up for I won’t bring you to her anymore. I'm disappointed Sungmin.” Sungmin looked away, not really interested anymore to what the man standing there was about to say.

“I don’t know if I can trust you anymore but it will be a waste if I’ll just kill you just like Heechul. You’ll have your new master. The household of Cho will take care of you.” Lee Sooman said. All those people once again left him in complete darkness.

“I’m sorry…” All he could say but not for them but to his hyung, for he was killed with suffering. He felt sorry that he couldn’t give Heechul the happiness he wanted unlike what Heechul did before to him when he felt complete seclusion. Now, he is once again separated to the family he grew attached. The non-blood related family that warmed his heart again to bring his smile back was parted from him. Now, as they wished, he’ll be the heartless being they created him to be.

*End of flashback*


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Kyuhyun parked the car in their huge garage in their mansion. He stared at the beauty sleeping in the passenger’s seat. His closed eyes were still trembling but his breathing was calm. He went out of the car and then opened the door in the passenger seat carefully not to wake him up. He gently lifted him up like a bride as he made his way inside their mansion.

He doesn’t care if all their staffs will be looking in their way with those scandalous stare, all he care about is Sungmin. He gently placed him on his bed and caresses the smoothness of his face.

He loses his tie because for him, it adds the difficulty in breathing for he can no longer hold it inside him. He gritted his teeth as he lose all his clothes and went directly to the bathroom, letting the hot shower to wash away everything, especially the feeling he finally admitted to himself. It seems like yesterday when he first met him, when those blank yet expressive eyes met his. He still remembers how cold Sungmin could be, but still the warmness of his smile was never erased in his mind. He clenched his fist in anger and punched the wall of the shower box, releasing his anger. He wanted to show he care, but he can’t. He wanted to tell him that he love him whatever he may be but never did he for he was afraid. With the environment they are in, he doesn’t know what future will be unfolded to them. And definitely, Sungmin hated him for being a brat master to him. What can he do? It’s the only way he can hide his true feelings.

“I’m sorry… Sungmin-ah… but… I l-love you…” He whimpered under the gushing heat of the shower he is taking. His hands were placed in the cold wall as his face was looking down. His eyes were closed hoping it will stop the tears threatening to stain his face with sorrow.

He flinched at the sudden feeling of arms wrapped around his waist from his back. His head tilt up when he felt a head placed on his back.

“I… think I… love you too… young master…” the figure behind him said. His words were stuck in his throat. He doesn’t know how to respond. He did want to hear those words but he wanted it only to be three with his name. He tried to remove those arms but the figure just tightened with a word, “Ani…”

He felt the figure shook his head at his back. Kyuhyun’s tears started to dispense hidden in the pouring shower.. He doesn’t want to hear another word again. He refused to.

“Please… Sung-“

“I love you… Kyuhyun.” Kyuhyun shudder his head up. Do his ears deceive him now? The wrap around his waist loosened that allowed him to face the figure behind him. The figure pulled his hands away, his face facing down. He was still in clothes that were drenched with water because of the shower continuously flowing.

He lifted his chin and made him face him. His eyes were still trembling yet it shows how he felt.

“I’m sorry young master… but… I couldn’t hide it any longer… I do love you…” Sungmin said with those wavering lips.

There were no words spoken afterwards. He brought his lips to his, capturing those lips he dreamed of tasting. The next thing they knew, clashes of flesh to flesh as they shudder in each others’ touches. The moans of their names and the sound of the droplets of water filled the room as their unspoken love they never thought they have for each other was exposed.

Thought it was still a great mystery for Sungmin how he fell in love with a guy that belongs to the type of people he hated the most. But one thing is for sure, he never felt alone with his presence. The loneliness was never present nor showed sign of appearing when he was with him.


*Flashback*

Sungmin stared at the sitting kid whose eyes were glued to the newest game console he got. He rolled his eyes in how irony became the best friend of his life. His stare drifted to the blue skies above. His family is gone, Heechul is gone, and so were Hankyung, Hyori, and Eunhyuk were separated from him. No one is left to be with him and now he is stuck to spend his entire lifetime with this brat as he may say.

“Here!” He jerked his head as he saw a game console laid in front of him. He looked back to his young master with questions running in his mind.

“Play with it.” His young master supplied, giving him fully the game console. Sungmin stared at him, still clueless on what his young master is trying to do. “Huh, what for young master? W-why?”

“Maybe it will help you smile…” His master replied, his back facing him. “Plus, I’m the only one allowed to have a cold stare.” He continued.

Sungmin blinked twice trying to digest what he just heard. But then those little words made him burst into laughter, a laughter he had never experienced for quite some time, especially after the miseries he had been through. It was a laughter that only Cho Kyuhyun managed to bring back in just a mere sentence. And for Kyuhyun who was looking into him, he never felt proud than before seeing him like that.

*End Of Flashback*


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“I’m sorry Hae… I have to go…

“Andwae! Don’t… don’t be ridiculous Hyukkie!”

“I have too.. for your safety… I love you Hae!”

“Don’t leave me Hyukkie! Don’t leave me!”

Please wait for me… my Donghae…”

“Don’t… jebal!”

“Trust me, I love you…”

“Eunhyuk!” Donghae shouted as he abruptly stood up. His breathing was heavy like someone strangled him in the neck. Beads of sweat continuously form in his forehead and one by one rolled down to his faces. He slumped back. His arm was placed above his forehead. He tried to catch his breath. He closed his eyes but still he saw one face he’ll never forget. He sat up once again. He knew he wouldn’t go back to sleep any moment now. He walked to the bathroom, letting the warm water to calm himself. God knows how he misses Eunhyuk so much. And it hurts so much to be separated from the one you love.

“Hyukjae-ah, saranghaeyo…” He mumbled.

He finished his bath and dried himself. He don’t know if he’ll try to do more shooting somewhere but the calm shine of the moon attracted him more that he went to the balcony instead. He might wake up the others as well.

He stared at the peaceful waves by the sea under the fullness of moonlight. He remembered perfectly how the two married themselves under the same moonlight. How he missed that man who wore the same ring as him. He missed how their fingers intertwined with each other as side by side they stood together. He missed how he clings onto him as he blabber anything he sees. He missed how every night he’ll moan his name with lust and love as both of them fulfil each others’ need. He missed how he say ‘I love you’ with pride and a gummy smile. He missed how their lips will clash to each other just to express their love. Those are just few things he missed. All he can say is he misses everything about him and words are not enough to express those.

“I missed you… my Hyukkie.”

He closed his eyes as the cold breeze softly blows into him. He then stiffened up when he felt a pair of arms wrapping around his waist. He touches it, trailing those hands with smoothness that he knew so well. He wanted to look back but the arms around him prevented it.

“Don’t” He ordered. Donghae flinched hearing that voice, that voice that will linger in his heart.

“H-hyukkie?” his heart was beating faster. Was he dreaming again? Was his mind playing a trick on him? Or did Eunhyuk finally come back?

“Hae…” the unknown figure started. But for Donghae, he knew him perfectly well. He couldn’t be mistaken. It was him, the man he truly loves.

“I’m sorry…” Eunhyuk continued.

“Aniyo… You don’t have to be sorry Hyukkie… as long as you’re back, I’m fine with it.” He coaxes him. His smile started to form. He was indeed happy that Eunhyuk was finally back and definitely, he wouldn’t let him go anymore.

“Hae, remember what you said before about saying ‘I’m sorry’?” Eunhyuk asked making Donghae clueless.

“If you do something bad and you meant it and it might hurt others, that’s the time you will say sorry…”

Those are the exact words or one of the main points he wanted to pointed out before and he don’t know why Eunhyuk asked now if all times.

“I’m sorry… Hae…” He repeated as the grips of the arms let go, finally letting Donghae to move and face Eunhyuk.

“Hyukkie, I told you-“

Click!

“H-hyukkie?!”

Donghae’s eyes widened. He didn’t understand what’s happening anymore. Right before his eyes stood the man he loves and was waiting for. But it wasn’t the same anymore. His eyes were emotionless, not like those before that were full of life. His red wavy hair was dyed black, darkness unfolded his aura. And his hand, which was full of warmth, now held a cold metal gun pointed at his head.


EUNHYUK’S POV

Kill him, that’s my mission. He needed to die. I can’t let him live I am thankful he had take good care of me, feed me, clothed me and loved me.

Wait, loved me? Does that even exist? He loved me? No, he just used me. He just used me and took advantage of me. And I will never forgive you, especially to what you did to those who I loved.



*FLASHBACK*


I was still hiding in Hyori noona’s chamber. It’s been like almost a month since I came back here. I don’t mind hiding as long as Donghae will be safe from them and then, the door clashed open revealing someone I was familiar with.

“Oh, Hankyung-ah…” I smiled into him.

“You… should… leave.” He was catching his breath. But what, he’s asking me to leave? Waeyo?!

“I think it isn’t necessary to ask Hyukjae to leave. He was home anyway.” My body couldn’t move. I stiffened up as I heard his voice. I turned my head and I was right. Lee Sooman, the guy who changed my whole life.


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“I’m really glad you are back.” He greeted me when we are alone at his chamber and hugged me. I still felt the friendship we have. He was one of those I treasure most. He may be bad but still.

“I’m sorry…” I bit my lower lip. I know I did the right thing to save Donghae before. But I still felt guilty. He was the one who took care of me and brought me to the place I can call home.

“It’s okay. I know you’ll be able to come back safe and sound. I’m just thankful they didn’t hurt you.” Hurt me? But? I don’t understand.

“Here, drink some tea. It may help you calm down.” He said handling me a cup of tea. I don’t know what’s happening… Hurt me? I sip some of my tea to help me calm down and it did. I'm thankful.

“They took you from us. They erased your memories so they could cloud it with their lies. I just hope you wouldn’t believe them.” He said. Believe them? But?! It can’t be. Are they…

“They are using you Hyukjae. They are using you to go against us…”

Andwae! You’re lying. Wait! Donghae?!

“Aniyo… I’m with Donghae, the one who I save before.” Yeah! I’m with Donghae and he… he loved me.

“I don’t know if I should tell you this Hyukjae…” He said. What was he trying to say? My hand started to tremble, making me spill my tea. I’m afraid to know what he’ll say.

“I don’t know if you can hold the truth…”

“What truth? Don’t be ridiculous, he love me.” I shouted. It can’t be. He said he love me. We even got married.

“That’s what they do Hyukjae. They manipulate anyone’s feeling so they would go against us. They did the same to Hyori before. They even got her daughter with them. Taemin’s mother, a corvus like you… they killed him. Now you, the most perfect corvus… They wanted you to go against us… Your real family…”

Please stop! Jebal! I’m begging you! I covered my ears. I don’t want to hear anything anymore. My tears came pouring, blurring my vision. My heart is aching. Kangin hyung? Leeteuk hyung? D-donghae…

“No, Donghae love me and I believe him.” I firmly said. Yeah, I believe him but why is my mind saying differently. Argh!

“I’m sorry Hyukjae-ah… But the Donghae you believe in. he’s not the one you believe you save before.” Huh? My gaze shifted to him. His back figure is facing me as he face the fireplace.

“Don’t you remember Hyukjae… what really happened? Did they really cloud your mind against us? Our little Donghae never lived. Don’t you remember how Haejin took her life after Donghwa died in a mission? Don’t you remember?”

Donghae never lived. But, I left him to Teukie hyung’s family. Ah, my head is hurting. Why can’t I remember everything? Damn it!

“I guess they did manipulate you. They showed you that our organization is for selfish cause but truthfully, we are just giving security and second life to those who died with unhappiness in life.” Manipulated me? My memories? My feelings?! “Please don’t be like Hyori. They will do everything just to end our organization. They even use our dear Donghae’s name.”

“It can’t be… if Donghae never lived, who the one…was” I can’t continue. I was terribly hurt. I can’t take it anymore.

“The Donghae you believe in was their head, the one who thought and planned all about this. He was the mastermind. He may be called Donghae, but he wasn’t the same Donghae you saved before.”

“Please, stop it… I can’t…”

“He has to stop Hyukjae… He needed to die.”

“I can’t… please don’t…” My knees gave in as I kneeled in the red carpet. I hugged myself as tears continuously rolled down. My head hurts. My heart was aching. I don’t know what to believe anymore. Did he really love me if he is what Sooman had said he is? To the friends I believed in, are they real?

“Donghae just played the role of controlling you. He never loved you and he never will. Once when their plan was successful, they will kill you. To them, you were just a toy they owned. I’m sorry Hyukjae. But it’s the truth.”

Please stop!

“You are the only one who can stop him. You must kill him.”

No! It can’t be! ANDWAE!

*END OF FLASHBACK*


“You are the only one who can stop him. You must kill him.” I remember those are the last words Sooman gave me before I set to this mission. I shouldn’t be weak. I must kill him. I will never forgive him. He used me. He played with my feelings.

“I must kill you. I need to kill you…” I said stepping backwards.

“Hyukkie? Waeyo? What’s wrong?” He said and approached me.

“Don’t come closer or I’ll really shoot you.” I warned him. Just pull the trigger Hyukjae. Darn it! Why can’t I? Suppress your feelings, you idiot.

“Hyukkie ple-”

“Don’t call me, Hyukkie.” Please don’t. Andwae! I felt my cheek being cupped that made me realize my tears are oozing down.

“Please don’t… I need to…” I begged. I’m so confused. To whom am I suppose to believe?

“Then tell me why?” That question caught me off guard. I don’t know what to say anymore.

“Be-cause…” It choked out to my mouth. I can’t say it. I look at his eyes, those orbs I’m so captivated. I wonder if that stare was even real. Those orbs that give you warm and light but I can’t let my guard down. My words were stuck within my throat. I couldn’t say it but I must “I h-hate… you.”

He closes his eyes and took a deep breath. What the hell is he doing? Is he finally showing who he really is? I must do it, to end everything. That’s all.

A smile formed in his face as he slowly moved my hand that holding his gun. I should struggle but none of my muscles or reflex acted. I just allowed him as he poked the gun on his chest. What the heck is he doing? Move, you pabo! Take your gun and fight me. I just wish I can say those words out but I couldn’t. My mind and heart is battling a lot. Jebal. Let this end.


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NORMAL POV
(Eunic monkey’s note: sorry need to change POVs. I think you’ll feel the scene more when it’s in Normal POV. ^^ Enjoy)

“Then do what you must… kill me…” Those words from Donghae pierce Hyukjae, tearing it to tiny pieces. Why must it hurt like this when he knew Donghae was just playing on him? Well that’s what he believed in. His mind and heart was clashes against each other. He needed to end this once and for all. But his hand wouldn’t move. He couldn’t pull the trigger.

He just let out his frustrations, “Why can’t you fight me! You idiot! I'm going to kill you and you’re still smiling. You idiot!”

“Hyuk-”

“Don’t call my name.” He bursts out. How Donghae called out his name with gentleness weakened Eunhyuk, his hand was still trembling. “Please… don’t call me like that…” He shut his eyes while biting his lower lip. That is all he can think to prevent himself from crying anymore.

“I’m sorry…” Donghae tried to haul Hyukjae closer but then the latter pushed him back with his gun.

“Don’t! Why are you doing this to me? Why can’t I kill you? Why are you acting like this? Aren’t you supposed to fight with me or kill me? Why?!” Hyukjae bursts again, his eyes were red and swollen but the tears wouldn’t stop. He was hurting inside.

“I’m sorry Hyukkie but I l-love you.” Donghae said caressing Hyukjae’s face and wiping those tears. He brought their face together, closing the gap. He brushed his lip and slowly closed his eyes as he claimed once again those luscious red plumps he misses the most. He moved forward, pinning the man to the walls that separates Donghae’s room and the balcony. Donghae grabbed his nape to deepen the kiss. He licked Eunhyuk’s lower lip asking for entrance to the sweet cavern he misses most and he did. He slid his tongue in, entangling it with Hyukjae’s as he presses his body down even if the gun is still poking his chest. After the long heated kiss, they separated to catch their breath. Eunhyuk opened his eyes to Donghae. Slowly he looks up and was met with Donghae’s awaiting eyes.

“I’m sorry…”

BANG!