[NC-17] BREATHE INTO ME (10/??)
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Isolation
DONGHAE’S POV
“Hae...”
I abruptly stopped on what I’m currently doing. Panting to gain back my normal breathing, I looked back to see Leeteuk hyung with his ever worried face.
“Give yourself a break, will ya?!” He said, bringing a towel around my neck, “Don’t overworked yourself.”
I bit my lower lip just to prevent myself from crying again, remembering the main reason why the hell I’ve been straining myself on learning to be great in defence.
Since Hyukjae fled 2 weeks ago, I fell into so many thoughts, trying to figure out why he left despite the promise we made that we should never, ever part.
I know it’s ridiculous that he just have to leave after we practically sworn to each other. But no matter how I think about it, no matter how I should be angry about him leaving... I JUST CAN’T. Especially that he asked for me to trust him.
I know that even Eunhyuk with that innocent and adorable personality can be that stubborn also and considering his past, there is this higher possibility that he would rather want to suffer alone. For my sake.
I can feel... I really can feel that he left for my sake. That idiot!!! Why can’t he trust me?! I’m freaking old now to defend myself. Arggh!
Either ways, he already left and there’s no way I can bring him back. With the promise we made, I’ll hold on to that. I’ll wait for him. When he get’s back, I’ll be damn sure I can defend myself to let him know that there is no other reason for him to leave. I won’t make him worry again.
I was too weak that he has to head-bat, stained his pure hands with blood just to protect me. I won’t let that happen again. Didn't I said to myself that I"ll protect him?
Since he ask for my trust, I’ll trust him that he’ll be back to me and that’s the time I won’t let him get away from me again. He should stay by my side forever like he promised me.
“I’m fine, hyung.” I smiled to hyung.
I heard him sigh really hardly, “Hae... Uyu will be fine.” He said.
“I was never worried about whether he’ll be fine or not. He is Hyukjae after all. But will he be bac-”
“He’ll be back. That’s for sure.” Leeteuk hyung interrupted and I guess putting my worries on his shoulder now would just make it more painful for me... ignorance is blessed after all.
I just have to work more... practice more... train more and by the time he’ll get back, I’ll be the one protecting him. That’s my main objective. But I just hope so that I can survive these times that he isn’t around. My Uyu... my Eunhyuk... you Hyukjae... Monkey, you better be safe or I swear if you get back, I’ll fuck you ‘til you can even make a step away from me.
“Urggghhh!”
“Here, blow your nose, you kiddo.” Leeteuk hyung smiled, offering a towel and encouraging me to blow my nose since I had cried again before I even realized it. What a useless shithead I am.
I am weak but I’m holding on. Thanks to Kangin’s word.
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<NORMAL POV>
Back on Seoul.
Heechul, as usual, had just got out from the elevator of the building where his bachelor’s pad is. He just got back from buying his cat’s food as usual after his long day at the photo shoot as a photographer his new lonely life had adopted.
As he walked over the corridor his pad was, he noticed two men standing at the doorway next door to his.
He lowered his dark shades as he scanned them. They were buzzing the doorbell at that certain unit and he wanted to walk back to somewhere he would be unnoticed of. He doesn’t wanna interact with the likes of them.
However, before he could do so, the taller man had called for him, “Excuse me,” he started.
Heechul who got the curiosity took over the sense of his cautions, had raised his head, “Yes?!”
“Have you see Donghae hyung, the occupant next door?! I’m his co-worker. My name is Cho Kyuhyun.” The taller guy said.
Heechul stared at that guy then to the door where his sweet neighbourhood had lived his city life too for quite a few good years. He knows Donghae and Hyukjae weren’t around already. Something happened that certain night that drove the two away into safety. Something he predicted to happen soon and it did. But it was way too soon.
His eyes then find an interesting guy behind the taller man. The guy was silent, not looking at his way and even smaller than the two of the others. He was small but has well-defined tight muscles but nevertheless, he still looks so stunningly pretty. Femininely pretty. Just enough to acknowledge that he is indeed someone as he is now. And Heechul knows what exactly.
“Hyung...?!” This Kyuhyun guy woke him up in a reverie.
He straightened his back as he looked away from the other blonde haired guy, he said, “I don’t know where he went. They just left.” He didn’t lie. He doesn’t really know or whether he would care at all. He already cut the ties with the things that would remind him of his horrible past and Donghae and Hyukjae were part of it! It’s a pity but he already gone tired of being in pain and distress. He swore not to pry.
“To a vacation?!” Kyuhyun asked, insisting to know and Heechul knows that the younger one just wanted to know because he was worried. Pity. He could have helped if this is just a trivial thing and nothing connected to his past. He could have helped.
“I don’t know.” Instead, he said again.
“Hyung... I need to know.” Kyuhyun had grab on Heechul’s wrist and the latter had to fight off his instinct of his reflexes not to throw that guy away.
“I don’t really know. Excuse me, I have a cat to feed.” He said his excuse, shifted his hands away from the grasp then went into his pad before that young man would freaking ask him again.
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Later that night, as usual, if the pain of past would struck him again, he would just drown himself into drinking alcohol all over again to at least pushed those memories somewhere on his brain that it’ll be out of reach for a while.
Suddenly, as alarmed as he was, he stood up when the door of his pad opened and gentle footsteps were heard.
Sooner, that same feminine pretty face he saw earlier, showed up in front of him.
Heechul gulped, “What are you doing here?! Are you gonna show me up too?!” He asked sarcastically even he knows that the intruder intended nothing like that. And it proved when the other male had hugged him so tightly.
“Hyung... Why...why did you leave me...?!” The other asked in his stuttering voice, crying like he only cried after those long, terrifying years.
Heechul fight off his tears. He must not cry. He looked up the ceiling to not let those welled tears to fall and when he succeeded to push those tears back, he cleared his throat to speak. “Sungmin ah, L-let go.”
The said male really did let go. “Hyung... Come back.” He begged.
Heechul stiffened up by the plea. Though, they weren’t in any way blood related, still, their past is related. He was a dongsaeng who cared so much, who smiles in any cute and funny moments despite of what happened, despite their real lives had given them that lead them to death, despite of being brought again to life to do inhumane acts for the sake of those selfish thugs. He would always smile on that and Heechul would always find it lifting his mood up. Somehow he felt guilt in his system of leaving, yet he said, “It’s painful.... Wished I never had... A heart.” He said.
“No...hyung.” Sungmin straightened his back, “You don’t understand. Don’t isolate yourself from the world. You failed to see it. Come back and you’ll know-”
“Know what?! The Slavery of that inhuman organization?! What’s good with that?!!! What’s good in what they’re doing to you, Minnie ah?! Are you happy to be brought to life again just to be forced to do anything... To do more fighting...?! To kill somebody, innocent or not?! Those bastards!! You’re smarter than that!”
Sungmin polled his eyes with tears again. He breathes out, “Everyone thought you’re dead.” He said.
Heechul sat down, “I wished I am. Now, sungmin ah. I don’t fucking want to see you again. I tried to forget everything but you just showed up and you just brought all those bad memories back again. It’s killing me, Minnie...” He took another sip of his wine and stared blankly.
“Hyung-”
“Damn it! Go away.” Heechul stood up to push Sungmin away who reacted nothing else but cried. He missed this certain hyung so much that when he heard he was ‘killed’, he practically felt all the dark clouds had found its place around him,-and never seem to leave- he felt he was alone in this damn life to do anything what he is forced to do. Being a corvus like his hyung is.
“Hyung...l-”
“Fuck, go away.!”
“Hyung... I don’t wanna be alone again... Hyung... If you come back-”
“Back?! How could you beg something like that Sungmin ah?! Are you this stupid?!”
“. . . . . . .”
Heechul teared, lifting the wine bottle only to throw it on the floor. “Shit! Sungmin ah, we were experimented. Being toyed and forced to do cruel things.”
“I know... But-”
“Urrggh! Fine! Try being experimented and get pregnant! Then have your little kid taken away knowing he gets experimented as well and if they fail, he’ll be slaughtered to death. Feel that freaking painful life! Falling in love, have a kid to be killed for such stupid failure, and what did that freaking stupid one I loved do?! Practically, nothing!!! NOTHING! That freaking CHINESE MAN, just fucking did nothing and let our kid get taken away and get killed! That man is useless! That man is worse than those other people! He only used me as his freaking experiment! That asshole!”
“Hyung... It’s not-”
“Leave me... Fuck! Leave me! I don’t want to do anything concerning about Corvus. I don’t care if you tell them that their Heenim is alive! Just leave now!”
Sungmin back a step away. He is practically crying now not because he’s scared of his hyung nor he was scared to go back alone being a bloody Corvus. Somehow, he feels Heechul’s anguish. He feels his burden and wanting to leave that part of the world that would remind him of things.
He bowed to his hyung, “I won’t show you up. Take care, hyung.” With that, he left and found his master still standing near the elevator, waiting for him with furrowed brows gazed on him when he saw he has his eyes red. However, much to Sungmin’s relief, his master didn’t ask. As if the master would care to ask anyways, as he thought.
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When every voice faded in that certain chamber, Hyukjae decided to get out of the closet where he hid himself for the moment. He arched his back freely and even though the door of that certain chamber opened again, it didn’t bother him even a bit. Instead he raised his head to greet a marvellous lady in front of him with a smile then added, “I thought they’re not gonna leave.” He whined, referring to those other scientist who visited her chamber.
Lee Hyori chuckled and threw him a carton of milk, “Hyukjae, as much as I want to keep in track of you, you can’t stay here.”
“Donghae is in a safe hand.” Hyukjae pointed out, “Besides, my job is in here.”
Lee Hyori just sighed, “You’ve been hiding in my chamber for a week now and it’s still a misery why you managed to get in Corvus headquarter without getting detected—”
“I’m Eunhyuk.... why wonder more about it?! This is my home 23 years ago.” Hyukjae pointed another fact and Hyori just breathes out not to argue anymore.
Once again, a knock was heard from the door and Hyukjae was supposed to get inside the closet once again to hide but Hyori chuckled, “It’s my assistant. It’s okay. We can trust him.”
Hyukjae just nodded and waited for the assistant to come inside. What he didn’t expect is, the person in front of him is too young to be Hyori’s assistant. At Hyori’s 52 year-old self, the man in front of them is like half of Hyori’s age.
“Annyeonghaseyo, Eunhyuk-shi. Hankyung Imnida.” The man said then bowed.
Eunhyuk just bowed back.
“He was the one keeping your progress for the last half of your freezing period. If there’s something that would go wrong in your body, he should be the one to blame.” Hyori added a joke at the end.
“I seem fine.” Eunhyuk cracked a smile.
“I’m glad.” Hankyung smiled back. “Ryeowook has been released today.” Hankyung directed his words to Hyori.
“Ae...?!” Hyori’s eyes widened. “He’s not ready yet.”
“Who’s Ryeowook?!” Hyukjae asked.
Hyori scratched her scalp really annoyingly, “Geez.... Can’t they wait?!” She bit her lips then looked at Hyukjae, “Ryeowook is the latest Corvus but he wasn’t that ready yet to be released out there.”
Hyukjae nodded again to take note of it. Then he asked, “So, how many Corvus out there?!”
“You... well... few dozens?! Well, few are really close to perfect... there are only four I am close with since they were my favourites.” Hyori said.
“Who are they?!” Hyukjae asked.
“You are the most perfect.” Hankyung said.
“Who else?!” Hyukjae kept asking and Hankyung cleared his throat. Hyukjae wondered why Hankyung fell into difficulty and awkwardness about the question.
Hyori broke the awkwardness of the question. She just asked Hankyung instead, “Have you heard why Ryeowook been released?!”
“Well, they need extra hand to find Donghae. Ryeowook would be the best ‘machine’ to track someone missing.” Hankyung said in annoyance but forgotten that Hyukjae was listening.
“SHIT!” Hyukjae gasped, realizing that his Donghae might be in danger anytime soon. “I need to go back.”
“No... don’t make another rush decision, Hyukkie... Let’s figure this out.” Hyori said, sitting down on her fluffy bed.
The three fell silence for a long time figuring what is the nicest thing to do. They were preoccupied on their own minds. Hyukjae in the other hand was holding his tears remembering how he just left Donghae like that?! Does Donghae hate him now?! Is Donghae safe?! Does he still love him?! Many questions are popping in his head and he just wanted to freak out.
“We need another Corvus that we can trust.” Hankyung mouthed a suggestion after long moment of silence.
Hyori sighed, “Sungmin.”
Hyukjae’s eyes widened. “He is with Donghae’s co-worker. Cho Kyuhyun.”
The other two nodded as they knew it already. Hankyung looked at Hyori, “Even Sungmin is a corvus and has a master. Sungmin still have a good heart. I’m sure he’ll understand.”
“But... he was the one who revealed Donghae’s place that Hyukjae is there.” Hyori disagreed on her own suggestion.
“Who else?!” Hyukjae asked.
“Uhmm, well—”
“Nobody else.” Hankyung interrupted. “We just have to take Sungmin in our side.” Hankyung said.
“DADDY! Is Daddy here?!”
The three people looked at the door where a seven year old adorable kid showed up. Hankyung smiled and closed the door after letting in the kid. “Taemin ah, I told you that you should be sleeping right now.”
Taemin just smiled adorably, “Woah!!!!” He pointed at Hyukjae, “Eunhyuk! A real Eunhyuk, papa!”
Hankyung laughed but whispered, “Don’t tell anybody that Eunhyuk is here, okay?!”
Taemin nodded eagerly, “Yes... it's our secret.” He beamed then smiled to Hyukjae.
Hyukjae looked at Hankyung. “Your kid?!”
“Yes.” Hankyung said.
“Where’s the mother?!” Hyukjae asked.
Hankyung bit his lower lip before sighing out. He managed a smile before saying, “Away.”
“Eunhyuk hyung is really pretty. But my mama is the prettiest. My papa said that mama is the prettiest person on Earth!”
“I see...” Hyukjae just smiled.
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Hankyung drew a smile on his face, playing on the soft brown hair his kid has on as he tried to hauled the kid to dreamland. He agrees, everyone agrees that his son looked like the mother and it only pained him more.
“Chullie... If only you still alive... You could have seen this pretty face of our son.” He whispered out of nowhere.
With that, a fit of cry escaped his mouth and was alarmed if he had woken Taemin up. He sighed when Taemin just flinched to snuggle up more to his dad’s careful fingers.
Right now, Hankyung managed to cry silently in too much regret and stupid-ness he did a long while way back.
FLASHBACK
[MonShie09's note: Series of different scenes of flashback.]
12 YEARS BACK
“Hankyung...”
Hankyung looked away from Eunhyuk’s sleeping figure in a tube where all the cords where connected to keep the figure alive.
He had been a student-scientist of this secret experiment and he only does this because he wanted to be a scientist –his childhood dream-. He just want to do what he likes and Hyori helps and trained him and now, it had been 3 years since he has been working under this lab and it has also been 3 years since he assist Hyori with this one important Corvus, Eunhyuk.
He quite heard lots about this man’s suffering and as to how he became one of the experiment and he feel for it.
“Hankyung ah,” The persistent voice spoke again and it reminded that he has a visitor.
“Waeyo?!” He asked, putting down the folder where Eunhyuk’s files of progress are documented.
But before the old prominent male scientist can explain, Hyori banged the door and said. “Hankyung ah, go to SECTION A! There’s a new man we wanted to operate.” She said and took all the materials she might need, completed with her everyday white suit, she whispered to Hankyung, “He has the highest opportunity to perfection. Let’s do this right together. Let’s make a brother for Eunhyukkie.” She smiled to Hankyung and to the sleeping said male beside the latter.
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As Hankyung had prepared himself for a day or two worth sleepless operation, he asked the nearest scientist, “What’s the cost of his death?!”
“Drugs... Over-dosage of anti- depressant.” He answered.
“I see. How long has he been dead?!”
“Approximately 8 hours.”
Hankyung smiled. “Cause of death and hours of death are perfect. Let’s get this male back to life.” He said and Hyori who supervising the operation managed to smile secretly proudly on her student, Hankyung.
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It’s been a year since the operation on that man had occurred and he was showing different types of responses. He was more than perfect. He was energetic in some point but they couldn’t point a finger exactly on how perfect he is. Unless they’ll release him.
And so they did.
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His real name is Heechul, hence was called Heenim after he became a corvus.
Hankyung always thought that Heechul was very pretty in many and infinite ways. He is just pure beauty. He had always thought so, that’s before Heechul was still at the tube before his grand release.
But Hankyung didn’t expect how that God of a beauty would look like if he opens his eyes with those curious and aloof gazes.
It did give Hankyung a hard time to keep his heart from not beating rapidly. Yet again, he fell. He had fallen in love with the second successful corvus, he himself made.
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It was too magical for Hankyung to realized and accept that he had fallen in love with some same gender, more, to a dead person.
Yet, it never ignored the fact that they got together. As how much Hankyung was in love with Heechul is how exactly the latter had grown affection to his creator. Him, being a corvus is not that hidden to him. Having Hankyung around him as a lover is only a big prize, something he managed to stay and accept that he had return to life with a horrid fate...but Hankyung had always been there for him, so, he thought he’d be worth living again.
So, when he gave himself to the Chinese man, he didn’t regret any of it. Getting impregnated afterwards wasn’t a bit shocking for him. He is considered as an unknown specie right now... A corvus after all. Thus, same reason why the lovers were too happy.
But, it shouldn’t be told. Yes, the three or four including Hyori and even the newest corvus had hidden the fact that Heechul was pregnant. But as a big organization they are in, it didn’t get that long, they have been found out. Resulting to have their kid taken away.
Heechul was so furious, wrecking the whole place, begging to bring his kid back knowing that he’ll be a specimen for another dying experiment. He couldn’t possibly imagine what would the life in store for his son.
Whereas, the father stayed calm, introverted as he is, weeping silently on the lost of their kid. He wanted to do anything and freaking out is not the best way. He’ll work on gaining the organization’s trust back so he himself could take all the experiment his kid could possibly go through. Yes, he is scared for his son, but it was the best he could do for now. At least, he’ll watch for his son’s progress or even take him away to safety.
Nevertheless, Heechul didn’t understand Hankyung’s way of thinking. He wants his baby back right that very moment. He cried and cried until he had reached his ugliest state he had never seen in his lifetime. But none of it he cared. He is desperate to have his son back, even his stupid husband won’t cooperate to it.
He worked on his own, he tried to save his own son, alone. Well, he was until Sungmin, the corvus after him had finally stand up and helped him despite the fact that he gets punished afterwards.
He thought he could save him or was he too stupid to think he can outwit all those up the organization?! NO! It didn’t. He hadn’t had a chance to get his son out and also resulted of him getting shot several times because there are no other way people could stop him. He has mother’s wife after all.
Sungmin was also injured but he had been spared. Heechul had been quite deeply injured to the point that despite of being a painless corvus, he felt all the pain. He hated it.
More to that, before he had made himself clear to the enemies, he overheard some men told that the experiment on one Corvus kid is a failure and so was slaughtered to death. That would only mean one thing. It was his baby, Taemin.
With that, Heechul fled. Somewhere off that he would no longer get to see anything that would freshen up all the memories of his lost. The lost of his son and the betrayal of the man he loves. Damn it all! He hates himself.
Never did he realized, Hankyung who has a heart of a father would never in the right mind would let his baby to get slaughtered to death. He did all he can, until to the end of his wits, to take every experiment to be successful but he himself didn’t realized that his wife is getting impatient. The next thing he knew, Heechul was killed for barging in to the lab. At least, that’s what he had been told.
It was like the feeling of having heaven to pact with hell just to punish the likes of him. He regretted of not having to act up into something Heechul would understand, concerning how the latter was always impatient. He should have explained his plans. He should have never taken his eyes away from his late lovely wife. Damn it all.
END of FLASHBACK
Once again, Hankyung had sobbed after remembering his wife on how he must have died with his resentment on Hankyung. He had died again with hatred yo life and Hankyung couldn’t help but to hate himself to be responsible of letting Heechul lived a second life and experienced sorrowful lifetime once again. Again. He felt so stupid and hateful.
“Daddy...”
Hankyung bowed down and was grateful that the room where dim lighted, allowing clear tears invisible on those pure eyes of his son. “Yeah, baby?!”
Taemin smiled lightly, “Daddy should sleep too.” He said.
Hankyung just nod, and felt his heart aching with every move of his son that reminds him of the mother. Yet again, he managed to smile back as he patted the kid back to sleep.
As he was outside the room, he whispered, “Chul ah, I may not know who holds you now... Whether the heaven or hell... I don’t know... But whenever you are, I missed you. Do you hate me still?! I still love you.” He voiced out, making him cry in heartache and emptiness again. If he didn’t die, he must be the happiest man right now... With their Taemin.
Suddenly, he heard batches of quickening footsteps. He hid himself behing the door of an empty stockroom. He then overheard something. “Eunhyuk was here.”
Hankyung’s eyes widened in shock as he leaned more closer. How could these men know about it?! Shit! Eunhyuk is no longer safe here, he needs to tell him before he’ll get captured and use for evil purposes again.
Eunhyuk has to be told. As soon as possible.
Chapter by: MonShie09
Edited by: EuNic monkEy
Just to help you guys:
For Corvus
Name > Age at Death > Being a 'Corvus' > Current Age
Hyukjae>23>23>46
Heechul>25>12>38
Sungmin>23>10>33
Ryeowook>22>3>25
Leeteuk>
Name> Age Before>Current Age
Hankyung>19>31
Hyori>28>52
Isolation
DONGHAE’S POV
“Hae...”
I abruptly stopped on what I’m currently doing. Panting to gain back my normal breathing, I looked back to see Leeteuk hyung with his ever worried face.
“Give yourself a break, will ya?!” He said, bringing a towel around my neck, “Don’t overworked yourself.”
I bit my lower lip just to prevent myself from crying again, remembering the main reason why the hell I’ve been straining myself on learning to be great in defence.
Since Hyukjae fled 2 weeks ago, I fell into so many thoughts, trying to figure out why he left despite the promise we made that we should never, ever part.
I know it’s ridiculous that he just have to leave after we practically sworn to each other. But no matter how I think about it, no matter how I should be angry about him leaving... I JUST CAN’T. Especially that he asked for me to trust him.
I know that even Eunhyuk with that innocent and adorable personality can be that stubborn also and considering his past, there is this higher possibility that he would rather want to suffer alone. For my sake.
I can feel... I really can feel that he left for my sake. That idiot!!! Why can’t he trust me?! I’m freaking old now to defend myself. Arggh!
Either ways, he already left and there’s no way I can bring him back. With the promise we made, I’ll hold on to that. I’ll wait for him. When he get’s back, I’ll be damn sure I can defend myself to let him know that there is no other reason for him to leave. I won’t make him worry again.
I was too weak that he has to head-bat, stained his pure hands with blood just to protect me. I won’t let that happen again. Didn't I said to myself that I"ll protect him?
Since he ask for my trust, I’ll trust him that he’ll be back to me and that’s the time I won’t let him get away from me again. He should stay by my side forever like he promised me.
“I’m fine, hyung.” I smiled to hyung.
I heard him sigh really hardly, “Hae... Uyu will be fine.” He said.
“I was never worried about whether he’ll be fine or not. He is Hyukjae after all. But will he be bac-”
“He’ll be back. That’s for sure.” Leeteuk hyung interrupted and I guess putting my worries on his shoulder now would just make it more painful for me... ignorance is blessed after all.
I just have to work more... practice more... train more and by the time he’ll get back, I’ll be the one protecting him. That’s my main objective. But I just hope so that I can survive these times that he isn’t around. My Uyu... my Eunhyuk... you Hyukjae... Monkey, you better be safe or I swear if you get back, I’ll fuck you ‘til you can even make a step away from me.
“Urggghhh!”
“Here, blow your nose, you kiddo.” Leeteuk hyung smiled, offering a towel and encouraging me to blow my nose since I had cried again before I even realized it. What a useless shithead I am.
I am weak but I’m holding on. Thanks to Kangin’s word.
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<NORMAL POV>
Back on Seoul.
Heechul, as usual, had just got out from the elevator of the building where his bachelor’s pad is. He just got back from buying his cat’s food as usual after his long day at the photo shoot as a photographer his new lonely life had adopted.
As he walked over the corridor his pad was, he noticed two men standing at the doorway next door to his.
He lowered his dark shades as he scanned them. They were buzzing the doorbell at that certain unit and he wanted to walk back to somewhere he would be unnoticed of. He doesn’t wanna interact with the likes of them.
However, before he could do so, the taller man had called for him, “Excuse me,” he started.
Heechul who got the curiosity took over the sense of his cautions, had raised his head, “Yes?!”
“Have you see Donghae hyung, the occupant next door?! I’m his co-worker. My name is Cho Kyuhyun.” The taller guy said.
Heechul stared at that guy then to the door where his sweet neighbourhood had lived his city life too for quite a few good years. He knows Donghae and Hyukjae weren’t around already. Something happened that certain night that drove the two away into safety. Something he predicted to happen soon and it did. But it was way too soon.
His eyes then find an interesting guy behind the taller man. The guy was silent, not looking at his way and even smaller than the two of the others. He was small but has well-defined tight muscles but nevertheless, he still looks so stunningly pretty. Femininely pretty. Just enough to acknowledge that he is indeed someone as he is now. And Heechul knows what exactly.
“Hyung...?!” This Kyuhyun guy woke him up in a reverie.
He straightened his back as he looked away from the other blonde haired guy, he said, “I don’t know where he went. They just left.” He didn’t lie. He doesn’t really know or whether he would care at all. He already cut the ties with the things that would remind him of his horrible past and Donghae and Hyukjae were part of it! It’s a pity but he already gone tired of being in pain and distress. He swore not to pry.
“To a vacation?!” Kyuhyun asked, insisting to know and Heechul knows that the younger one just wanted to know because he was worried. Pity. He could have helped if this is just a trivial thing and nothing connected to his past. He could have helped.
“I don’t know.” Instead, he said again.
“Hyung... I need to know.” Kyuhyun had grab on Heechul’s wrist and the latter had to fight off his instinct of his reflexes not to throw that guy away.
“I don’t really know. Excuse me, I have a cat to feed.” He said his excuse, shifted his hands away from the grasp then went into his pad before that young man would freaking ask him again.
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Later that night, as usual, if the pain of past would struck him again, he would just drown himself into drinking alcohol all over again to at least pushed those memories somewhere on his brain that it’ll be out of reach for a while.
Suddenly, as alarmed as he was, he stood up when the door of his pad opened and gentle footsteps were heard.
Sooner, that same feminine pretty face he saw earlier, showed up in front of him.
Heechul gulped, “What are you doing here?! Are you gonna show me up too?!” He asked sarcastically even he knows that the intruder intended nothing like that. And it proved when the other male had hugged him so tightly.
“Hyung... Why...why did you leave me...?!” The other asked in his stuttering voice, crying like he only cried after those long, terrifying years.
Heechul fight off his tears. He must not cry. He looked up the ceiling to not let those welled tears to fall and when he succeeded to push those tears back, he cleared his throat to speak. “Sungmin ah, L-let go.”
The said male really did let go. “Hyung... Come back.” He begged.
Heechul stiffened up by the plea. Though, they weren’t in any way blood related, still, their past is related. He was a dongsaeng who cared so much, who smiles in any cute and funny moments despite of what happened, despite their real lives had given them that lead them to death, despite of being brought again to life to do inhumane acts for the sake of those selfish thugs. He would always smile on that and Heechul would always find it lifting his mood up. Somehow he felt guilt in his system of leaving, yet he said, “It’s painful.... Wished I never had... A heart.” He said.
“No...hyung.” Sungmin straightened his back, “You don’t understand. Don’t isolate yourself from the world. You failed to see it. Come back and you’ll know-”
“Know what?! The Slavery of that inhuman organization?! What’s good with that?!!! What’s good in what they’re doing to you, Minnie ah?! Are you happy to be brought to life again just to be forced to do anything... To do more fighting...?! To kill somebody, innocent or not?! Those bastards!! You’re smarter than that!”
Sungmin polled his eyes with tears again. He breathes out, “Everyone thought you’re dead.” He said.
Heechul sat down, “I wished I am. Now, sungmin ah. I don’t fucking want to see you again. I tried to forget everything but you just showed up and you just brought all those bad memories back again. It’s killing me, Minnie...” He took another sip of his wine and stared blankly.
“Hyung-”
“Damn it! Go away.” Heechul stood up to push Sungmin away who reacted nothing else but cried. He missed this certain hyung so much that when he heard he was ‘killed’, he practically felt all the dark clouds had found its place around him,-and never seem to leave- he felt he was alone in this damn life to do anything what he is forced to do. Being a corvus like his hyung is.
“Hyung...l-”
“Fuck, go away.!”
“Hyung... I don’t wanna be alone again... Hyung... If you come back-”
“Back?! How could you beg something like that Sungmin ah?! Are you this stupid?!”
“. . . . . . .”
Heechul teared, lifting the wine bottle only to throw it on the floor. “Shit! Sungmin ah, we were experimented. Being toyed and forced to do cruel things.”
“I know... But-”
“Urrggh! Fine! Try being experimented and get pregnant! Then have your little kid taken away knowing he gets experimented as well and if they fail, he’ll be slaughtered to death. Feel that freaking painful life! Falling in love, have a kid to be killed for such stupid failure, and what did that freaking stupid one I loved do?! Practically, nothing!!! NOTHING! That freaking CHINESE MAN, just fucking did nothing and let our kid get taken away and get killed! That man is useless! That man is worse than those other people! He only used me as his freaking experiment! That asshole!”
“Hyung... It’s not-”
“Leave me... Fuck! Leave me! I don’t want to do anything concerning about Corvus. I don’t care if you tell them that their Heenim is alive! Just leave now!”
Sungmin back a step away. He is practically crying now not because he’s scared of his hyung nor he was scared to go back alone being a bloody Corvus. Somehow, he feels Heechul’s anguish. He feels his burden and wanting to leave that part of the world that would remind him of things.
He bowed to his hyung, “I won’t show you up. Take care, hyung.” With that, he left and found his master still standing near the elevator, waiting for him with furrowed brows gazed on him when he saw he has his eyes red. However, much to Sungmin’s relief, his master didn’t ask. As if the master would care to ask anyways, as he thought.
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When every voice faded in that certain chamber, Hyukjae decided to get out of the closet where he hid himself for the moment. He arched his back freely and even though the door of that certain chamber opened again, it didn’t bother him even a bit. Instead he raised his head to greet a marvellous lady in front of him with a smile then added, “I thought they’re not gonna leave.” He whined, referring to those other scientist who visited her chamber.
Lee Hyori chuckled and threw him a carton of milk, “Hyukjae, as much as I want to keep in track of you, you can’t stay here.”
“Donghae is in a safe hand.” Hyukjae pointed out, “Besides, my job is in here.”
Lee Hyori just sighed, “You’ve been hiding in my chamber for a week now and it’s still a misery why you managed to get in Corvus headquarter without getting detected—”
“I’m Eunhyuk.... why wonder more about it?! This is my home 23 years ago.” Hyukjae pointed another fact and Hyori just breathes out not to argue anymore.
Once again, a knock was heard from the door and Hyukjae was supposed to get inside the closet once again to hide but Hyori chuckled, “It’s my assistant. It’s okay. We can trust him.”
Hyukjae just nodded and waited for the assistant to come inside. What he didn’t expect is, the person in front of him is too young to be Hyori’s assistant. At Hyori’s 52 year-old self, the man in front of them is like half of Hyori’s age.
“Annyeonghaseyo, Eunhyuk-shi. Hankyung Imnida.” The man said then bowed.
Eunhyuk just bowed back.
“He was the one keeping your progress for the last half of your freezing period. If there’s something that would go wrong in your body, he should be the one to blame.” Hyori added a joke at the end.
“I seem fine.” Eunhyuk cracked a smile.
“I’m glad.” Hankyung smiled back. “Ryeowook has been released today.” Hankyung directed his words to Hyori.
“Ae...?!” Hyori’s eyes widened. “He’s not ready yet.”
“Who’s Ryeowook?!” Hyukjae asked.
Hyori scratched her scalp really annoyingly, “Geez.... Can’t they wait?!” She bit her lips then looked at Hyukjae, “Ryeowook is the latest Corvus but he wasn’t that ready yet to be released out there.”
Hyukjae nodded again to take note of it. Then he asked, “So, how many Corvus out there?!”
“You... well... few dozens?! Well, few are really close to perfect... there are only four I am close with since they were my favourites.” Hyori said.
“Who are they?!” Hyukjae asked.
“You are the most perfect.” Hankyung said.
“Who else?!” Hyukjae kept asking and Hankyung cleared his throat. Hyukjae wondered why Hankyung fell into difficulty and awkwardness about the question.
Hyori broke the awkwardness of the question. She just asked Hankyung instead, “Have you heard why Ryeowook been released?!”
“Well, they need extra hand to find Donghae. Ryeowook would be the best ‘machine’ to track someone missing.” Hankyung said in annoyance but forgotten that Hyukjae was listening.
“SHIT!” Hyukjae gasped, realizing that his Donghae might be in danger anytime soon. “I need to go back.”
“No... don’t make another rush decision, Hyukkie... Let’s figure this out.” Hyori said, sitting down on her fluffy bed.
The three fell silence for a long time figuring what is the nicest thing to do. They were preoccupied on their own minds. Hyukjae in the other hand was holding his tears remembering how he just left Donghae like that?! Does Donghae hate him now?! Is Donghae safe?! Does he still love him?! Many questions are popping in his head and he just wanted to freak out.
“We need another Corvus that we can trust.” Hankyung mouthed a suggestion after long moment of silence.
Hyori sighed, “Sungmin.”
Hyukjae’s eyes widened. “He is with Donghae’s co-worker. Cho Kyuhyun.”
The other two nodded as they knew it already. Hankyung looked at Hyori, “Even Sungmin is a corvus and has a master. Sungmin still have a good heart. I’m sure he’ll understand.”
“But... he was the one who revealed Donghae’s place that Hyukjae is there.” Hyori disagreed on her own suggestion.
“Who else?!” Hyukjae asked.
“Uhmm, well—”
“Nobody else.” Hankyung interrupted. “We just have to take Sungmin in our side.” Hankyung said.
“DADDY! Is Daddy here?!”
The three people looked at the door where a seven year old adorable kid showed up. Hankyung smiled and closed the door after letting in the kid. “Taemin ah, I told you that you should be sleeping right now.”
Taemin just smiled adorably, “Woah!!!!” He pointed at Hyukjae, “Eunhyuk! A real Eunhyuk, papa!”
Hankyung laughed but whispered, “Don’t tell anybody that Eunhyuk is here, okay?!”
Taemin nodded eagerly, “Yes... it's our secret.” He beamed then smiled to Hyukjae.
Hyukjae looked at Hankyung. “Your kid?!”
“Yes.” Hankyung said.
“Where’s the mother?!” Hyukjae asked.
Hankyung bit his lower lip before sighing out. He managed a smile before saying, “Away.”
“Eunhyuk hyung is really pretty. But my mama is the prettiest. My papa said that mama is the prettiest person on Earth!”
“I see...” Hyukjae just smiled.
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Hankyung drew a smile on his face, playing on the soft brown hair his kid has on as he tried to hauled the kid to dreamland. He agrees, everyone agrees that his son looked like the mother and it only pained him more.
“Chullie... If only you still alive... You could have seen this pretty face of our son.” He whispered out of nowhere.
With that, a fit of cry escaped his mouth and was alarmed if he had woken Taemin up. He sighed when Taemin just flinched to snuggle up more to his dad’s careful fingers.
Right now, Hankyung managed to cry silently in too much regret and stupid-ness he did a long while way back.
FLASHBACK
[MonShie09's note: Series of different scenes of flashback.]
12 YEARS BACK
“Hankyung...”
Hankyung looked away from Eunhyuk’s sleeping figure in a tube where all the cords where connected to keep the figure alive.
He had been a student-scientist of this secret experiment and he only does this because he wanted to be a scientist –his childhood dream-. He just want to do what he likes and Hyori helps and trained him and now, it had been 3 years since he has been working under this lab and it has also been 3 years since he assist Hyori with this one important Corvus, Eunhyuk.
He quite heard lots about this man’s suffering and as to how he became one of the experiment and he feel for it.
“Hankyung ah,” The persistent voice spoke again and it reminded that he has a visitor.
“Waeyo?!” He asked, putting down the folder where Eunhyuk’s files of progress are documented.
But before the old prominent male scientist can explain, Hyori banged the door and said. “Hankyung ah, go to SECTION A! There’s a new man we wanted to operate.” She said and took all the materials she might need, completed with her everyday white suit, she whispered to Hankyung, “He has the highest opportunity to perfection. Let’s do this right together. Let’s make a brother for Eunhyukkie.” She smiled to Hankyung and to the sleeping said male beside the latter.
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As Hankyung had prepared himself for a day or two worth sleepless operation, he asked the nearest scientist, “What’s the cost of his death?!”
“Drugs... Over-dosage of anti- depressant.” He answered.
“I see. How long has he been dead?!”
“Approximately 8 hours.”
Hankyung smiled. “Cause of death and hours of death are perfect. Let’s get this male back to life.” He said and Hyori who supervising the operation managed to smile secretly proudly on her student, Hankyung.
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It’s been a year since the operation on that man had occurred and he was showing different types of responses. He was more than perfect. He was energetic in some point but they couldn’t point a finger exactly on how perfect he is. Unless they’ll release him.
And so they did.
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His real name is Heechul, hence was called Heenim after he became a corvus.
Hankyung always thought that Heechul was very pretty in many and infinite ways. He is just pure beauty. He had always thought so, that’s before Heechul was still at the tube before his grand release.
But Hankyung didn’t expect how that God of a beauty would look like if he opens his eyes with those curious and aloof gazes.
It did give Hankyung a hard time to keep his heart from not beating rapidly. Yet again, he fell. He had fallen in love with the second successful corvus, he himself made.
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It was too magical for Hankyung to realized and accept that he had fallen in love with some same gender, more, to a dead person.
Yet, it never ignored the fact that they got together. As how much Hankyung was in love with Heechul is how exactly the latter had grown affection to his creator. Him, being a corvus is not that hidden to him. Having Hankyung around him as a lover is only a big prize, something he managed to stay and accept that he had return to life with a horrid fate...but Hankyung had always been there for him, so, he thought he’d be worth living again.
So, when he gave himself to the Chinese man, he didn’t regret any of it. Getting impregnated afterwards wasn’t a bit shocking for him. He is considered as an unknown specie right now... A corvus after all. Thus, same reason why the lovers were too happy.
But, it shouldn’t be told. Yes, the three or four including Hyori and even the newest corvus had hidden the fact that Heechul was pregnant. But as a big organization they are in, it didn’t get that long, they have been found out. Resulting to have their kid taken away.
Heechul was so furious, wrecking the whole place, begging to bring his kid back knowing that he’ll be a specimen for another dying experiment. He couldn’t possibly imagine what would the life in store for his son.
Whereas, the father stayed calm, introverted as he is, weeping silently on the lost of their kid. He wanted to do anything and freaking out is not the best way. He’ll work on gaining the organization’s trust back so he himself could take all the experiment his kid could possibly go through. Yes, he is scared for his son, but it was the best he could do for now. At least, he’ll watch for his son’s progress or even take him away to safety.
Nevertheless, Heechul didn’t understand Hankyung’s way of thinking. He wants his baby back right that very moment. He cried and cried until he had reached his ugliest state he had never seen in his lifetime. But none of it he cared. He is desperate to have his son back, even his stupid husband won’t cooperate to it.
He worked on his own, he tried to save his own son, alone. Well, he was until Sungmin, the corvus after him had finally stand up and helped him despite the fact that he gets punished afterwards.
He thought he could save him or was he too stupid to think he can outwit all those up the organization?! NO! It didn’t. He hadn’t had a chance to get his son out and also resulted of him getting shot several times because there are no other way people could stop him. He has mother’s wife after all.
Sungmin was also injured but he had been spared. Heechul had been quite deeply injured to the point that despite of being a painless corvus, he felt all the pain. He hated it.
More to that, before he had made himself clear to the enemies, he overheard some men told that the experiment on one Corvus kid is a failure and so was slaughtered to death. That would only mean one thing. It was his baby, Taemin.
With that, Heechul fled. Somewhere off that he would no longer get to see anything that would freshen up all the memories of his lost. The lost of his son and the betrayal of the man he loves. Damn it all! He hates himself.
Never did he realized, Hankyung who has a heart of a father would never in the right mind would let his baby to get slaughtered to death. He did all he can, until to the end of his wits, to take every experiment to be successful but he himself didn’t realized that his wife is getting impatient. The next thing he knew, Heechul was killed for barging in to the lab. At least, that’s what he had been told.
It was like the feeling of having heaven to pact with hell just to punish the likes of him. He regretted of not having to act up into something Heechul would understand, concerning how the latter was always impatient. He should have explained his plans. He should have never taken his eyes away from his late lovely wife. Damn it all.
END of FLASHBACK
Once again, Hankyung had sobbed after remembering his wife on how he must have died with his resentment on Hankyung. He had died again with hatred yo life and Hankyung couldn’t help but to hate himself to be responsible of letting Heechul lived a second life and experienced sorrowful lifetime once again. Again. He felt so stupid and hateful.
“Daddy...”
Hankyung bowed down and was grateful that the room where dim lighted, allowing clear tears invisible on those pure eyes of his son. “Yeah, baby?!”
Taemin smiled lightly, “Daddy should sleep too.” He said.
Hankyung just nod, and felt his heart aching with every move of his son that reminds him of the mother. Yet again, he managed to smile back as he patted the kid back to sleep.
As he was outside the room, he whispered, “Chul ah, I may not know who holds you now... Whether the heaven or hell... I don’t know... But whenever you are, I missed you. Do you hate me still?! I still love you.” He voiced out, making him cry in heartache and emptiness again. If he didn’t die, he must be the happiest man right now... With their Taemin.
Suddenly, he heard batches of quickening footsteps. He hid himself behing the door of an empty stockroom. He then overheard something. “Eunhyuk was here.”
Hankyung’s eyes widened in shock as he leaned more closer. How could these men know about it?! Shit! Eunhyuk is no longer safe here, he needs to tell him before he’ll get captured and use for evil purposes again.
Eunhyuk has to be told. As soon as possible.
Chapter by: MonShie09
Edited by: EuNic monkEy
Just to help you guys:
For Corvus
Name > Age at Death > Being a 'Corvus' > Current Age
Hyukjae>23>23>46
Heechul>25>12>38
Sungmin>23>10>33
Ryeowook>22>3>25
Leeteuk>
Name> Age Before>Current Age
Hankyung>19>31
Hyori>28>52
